How can I be only your friend
When yesterday I was more than a friend?
How can I see you just now and then
When I used to see you all the time?
How can I change my feelings for you
When they're the only real feelings I have?
How can I see someone else
When you're the only one for me?
How can I?

I don't know.
I only know I love you,
But for love to be complete
You must love me, too.
You might stop loving me
But my love will not die.

This is my favourite colour BLUE:

If your personal colour is blue, you are introspective and purposeful by nature. You hold conservative beliefs and under stressful conditions, prefer to withdraw into gentler surroundings. You seem to have a lot of control over your passions and desires, but are sensitive to the needs and feelings of others, nonetheless. You are a loyal friend and would prefer to lead a sober life.

today was FUN...really.....lucky i didn't miss it...at least for the Amazing Race..
Had so much fun in east coast man... really... the whole CG is bonding well i guess...
hahhha..... some nice girls in our CG.....but haiz.......
attached le lah :(

sigh.. me left eye is hurt...
yesterday during the training tt small jun xian (Irwin) poked his finger
into my eye with an elbow at the same time when he was trying to steal the ball....
wad the..... for that very few seconds i tot i was blind man...
i was tring hard to open my left eye... but what i saw was a total darkness..
really feel like screwing him up side down at tt time.....but i didn't... i went off to the toilet...
i dun think he was purposely.. he didn't even know he had injuried me.. haiz

my left eye is so red this morning tt i didn't dare to wear my contact lenses..
hope tmr will be better... HOPE lah....
my tutor tot i was tired.. left eye so red...

wah liu..... she is attached......
hahhha...... nvm.... looking forward..... =)

today i played badly again...
felt disappionted abt myself...
Punished myself by shooting fifty free throws after the training...
felt like shit... or in bettter word.."faeces"..
arghhh........ no mood man

today orientation games were quite ok..
some were ineteresting but some really couldn't make it...
many ppl praised me after the "tennis game" which was held on the netball court
they said i am a super good defender... keep intercepting the ball
ahbo... when i play netabll... i intercepted more lei... (NYJC)

Shit lah... my class only got two guys... including me...
expected... but sigh... hope the girls there are nice and unattached...

Spend hundred and fifty bucks in buying Orientainon Pack,School Uniforms basketabll team T-shirts..
Broke le lah...

Feeling of the day
"I am proud of myself... but i always lack of confidence"

Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell them. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

"No Man is worth a woman's tears. The only one who's worth her tears is the one who knows he could but would never, ever make her cry."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Alvin!

09:00am - 01:00pm
Playing basketball with GESS teammates at Henderson court,
had a lot of funs.. played the Free-throw games with them..
Won many times and "killed" many ppl...hahhhaha

01:00pm - 03:00pm
Rested and watched some downloaded videos at Yong Meng's house...
He looks nicer with his new hair style...
Think i also got to cut my hair le..... maybe go and cut it before the competitions started...

03:00 pm - 06:00pm
Had sakae sushi with them at the Tiong Bahru Plaza...
6 ppl finished 100 plates.....
Eat unitl i scare of sushi now...
not going to eat sushi in this year i think......hahha..
The cheese cakes in sakae sushi are damn NICE....
three different flavours...... i like bluberry the most.......hahha..
but the chocolate flavour one also not bad.... =)

=(
Taiwan's president Chen Shui Bian.....
Was shot today.....
Directly on stomach....
Sigh.....

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

I am single... no doubt.... =)

You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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Done this quiz in the early morning... quite fun to play with... but the pic given is abit girlish......sheesh (even i dunnoe what does this means hahha)

Hahhahha... this is the not fist time ppl mistaken my Sec sch name as my name!
Wah liu...... Sam asked me why i wore a shirt with the name "yong cheng" behind.......hahhhha......... oh my god....... yan yong cheng is the chiense name of Gan Eng Seng lah...... nvm.... he is not the first and the only one who who did the same thing.....(^_^")

Have training in the afternoon... but feel like goign to swim later... long time no swim le

How To Be A Better Couple
10 steps to enjoying each other better...

1. Be realistic about each other.
Don't try to turn ur partner into something he or she is not. Let's face it, guys-there's only 1 Pamela Anderson in the world, and even she has had her implants removed! Give ur gal a break and understand that her physical appearance is NOT going to change overnite with the help of a few facials or treatments. And ladies, Brad Pitt has already been taken, so u're gonna have to do with what ur guy is like! Chill out, love each other for what u are. There is more to ur partner than what meets the eye.


2. Always talk things out.
Now guys, I know this is not ur fave pastime or mode of resolving issues,but u know what? This works with the gals. Don't make assumptions about each other's feelings. Learn to xpress urself better so that ur partner undrstands what u're angry about, or hurt about, or even happy about! When u stop talking to each other from the heart, it's the beginning of the end.


3. Do stuff together.
Make an effort to do t hings together. Do some sports or involve urselves in some shared activities; something both of u enjoy or are interested in. It could be as simple as watching movies together, or jus strolling hand-in-hand down Orchard Road. Watch soccor with him once in a while though the green patch on TV puts u to sleep in 3 seconds. And guys, do give in if ur gal asks for another day at window-shopping, rather than suggest that she go out with her girlfriends for "that sort of activities"instead. If u're spending more time with ur friends rather than with ur partner, it's a warning sign that u're drifting apart!!!


4. Meet each other halfway.
If he agrees to throw out that rotten T-shirt with the "The_Rock" print, u shouldn't kick up much of a fuss if he asks u to keep ur room tidy...There's gotta be a little giving and taking in a relationship, so learn to meet each other halfway.


5.Show ur love
Buy her flowers or candy or perfume everynow and then, even if u have been together for 5years. It's wonderful to continue showing someone that u care for him or her. Cook him a special meal, paint him a Valentine's Day card. Knit him mini-socks he can't wear ( like for decoration purposes ), buy him a packet of milk for breakfast, or pack his wardrobe for him...so he knows u can still be romantic and loving despite having been together for quite a while.


6. Respect each other.
Stop making jokes about her hair or skin, or whatever it is u love to laugh at. Ask urself if she thinks if its funny. And if he has an inferiority complex about his height, stop ogling at tall guys and make him feel worse! Love is about respecting each other's feelings and being sensitive to each other at all times.


7. Bury the past.
Stop bringing up the past. Gals..don't bring up the happy things about u and ur ex to ur guy, it would jus make him jealous or unhappy. And guys,don't talk about the happy times that u had with ur ex or mention about her in ur every other sentence as it would make ur gal feel un-happy and she might think that u saying all this b'cos u are gonna get back with ur ex or not interested in her anymore.


8. Sit on ur jealousy.
All of us go thru' spells of insecurity at the beginning of the relationship, but don't translate that insecurity into jealousy. If u're gonna go through ur partner's mail and cupboard, and eavesdropping on conversations, u know something is wrong - with u!!! Jealousy is like a poison that slowly spreads thru' the relationship before finall y killing it. Trust ur partner; love has to have trust in it.


9. Keep ur commitments to each other.
If ur partner is standing u up all the time and cancelling dates and breaking promises, u need to talk! If u're in a relationship, make ur partner ur priority and don't disappoint them if u can help it. It's really terrible when someone promises to take u to dinner, and then calls to cancel it. Don't make promises u can't keep. If ur partner starts to feel that he/she is not important enough to u, u may jus lose him/her.

10. Honesty to ur partner
Honesty is not scowling at how awful she looks first thing in the morning, or telling him that he has the biceps of a fly~! When we say "be honest", we mean expressing < EM>ur feelings clearly, not being bitingly cruel. When u're hurt, say so, and when u're angry, tell him/her, w/o getting hysterical. If u can't be honest with ur partner, who can u be honest with? ae Love is also about honesty, and a relationship where no honesty exists probably isn't worth it!

我长大了

被迫接受分手的人总是比主动提分手的人不甘心

因为有一种被拋弃的感觉

在寂寞的时侯总想找找那个不爱你的人看他过的怎么样

明知不会有太好的反应却总是狠不下心掉头就走

可是得到的反应总比想象中的坏

已经决定掉头离去的人

常常曲解了旧情人的意图

一句句发自内心的关怀

却被误认为

他不甘不脆 他意图不轨 他居心叵测

沉默是金

但你的沉默却是我心中的痛

为了赌一口气

企图毁灭对方

原有的一点美好回忆

也因你的冷漠

变得荡然无存

如果我好心的问候

已经被你误解为骚扰

那我何必自取其辱

让自尊心被狠狠的践踏

碎了一地

心冷了

泪干了

谢谢你

让我长大了




NOTE:
i think is the time to be brave now... no matter wad the outcome is... = )

This is a message from NYJC baketball teacher in charge:
01/03/2004
08:30pm

Nevermind i can understand ur situation. Just do what u think is best for you.
You do not owe Nanyang anything cos during ur stay here you have given us your best. I wish you all the best but deep down we all want u to stay. Remember always to wad u want to do.. and do your best abt it !

This msg is so touched to me..... He is a great teacher.. no doubt...

NYJC basketballers are friendly and nice.... i have no regret if i got to stay here and paly with them... i learned nothing during the training for these months... but i earned their friendship.... and this is priceless.....

BS is still sick today.... but she seems to be slightly better.. hope she will be fully recover by tmr....

Hungry now... didn't eat dinner just now..... cos not in the right mood i guess!
well... tmr training is impt to me... not for my own reputation... but for GESS!