Afraid



in the lonely night,

i will still think of you.

un-notically,

i will take note of you.

when love become stagnant,

the last resort is seperation.

i will continue living.

but i am still afraid,

when i am alone,

i will remind myself of you.

regrettably,

i wish i didn't make a decision when it is time to leave.

cause i am still afraid...

Sometimes life is like drinking a cup of coffee without sugar. After overcoming the bitterness, you'll taste a tinge of sweetness within. Although it's only a bit of sweetness, it's like victory after a long and hard war, ever so satisfying.

Being busy lately, usually ppl who didn't blog for a long time had two reasons:
1. They are in loved
2. They are busy in loved

.... but... i didn't blog for a long time was because of Project Work (PW)... pw pw pw pw pw pw...

yar, our group is fantastic man (TJ 164), was being so united and hardworking for the past few days, the project work file of our was being organized so needly by jane until an extent tt everyone would give a "WOW!" when they saw our file.. *so poud of our group*
then we were practicing our Oral Presentation (OP) for countless of time until i can do it without cue cards =)

anyway i have a hard time when i was trying to pronounce these two simple words
"consume" and "work" >_<"

received these two mails from Pamela and Ms ng respectively, thankz =) *touched*

hey jun xian!are u very surprised to receive my mail? this is pamela incase udunno.. yeah tt moron who was damn impressed by your cards (duno wadto call them).. juz wanna thank you for being such a great cg rep for this year! hopeu can be our cg rep next year too.. been reading your blog (bet youdidnt know) and you seem to be really depressed and nan guo most ofthe time.. isit because of our class? maybe u feel very nan guo cos ofus? this bunch of 38 girls.. i have to admit we always tend to leave u and guohao out.. but i'msure it isnt done on purpose.. u noe guys and girls always have somesort of invisible barrier.. immature lar. yar.. so hope u wont bear agrudge against us? and dun always go and eat buns and fruits yourselfleh. can always eat with us wad. we look so unfriendly and bad meh? =Pblehh.. maybe we really look so...sigh so i just wanna let u know im sorry for being one of those guilty ofleaving u guys out.. in a unknowing way.. definitely not on purpose...forgive us! (or me, rather) again, i must reiterate the fact that im very very very impressed withyour sweet efforts in doing the little cards.. its something small butit means so much! (haha getting mushy here =S) yeah i really mean itlor. i mean, if i were you, i wldnt even be bothered to make it sonicely.. i will juz print the words and tts all lor. and i tell u,alot of ppl in 34 are impressed oso!! touched and impressed... likeglenda lar, wenyuan lar, eileen la, etc etc. in case u have any doubt of ur own abilities as a CG rep, here's toassure u YOU'RE A GREAT CG REP!! yeah.... do u feel damn shuang now?haha.. but of cos not as great a rep as me. the lep rep. ahha no juzjoking!! so pls dun be so sad sad and you1 yu4 liaoz ok. i noe got some ppl whogets on ur nerves lar.. but thats life. in case u think there's nobodyu can confide in in this cls, theres always me! i duno lar.. we dontreally talk in cls i noe.. cos im a very quiet n reserved person u see(yar rite).. but feel free to confide in me im a good listener u noe.yea..... cheer up!! thanks so much again!! im damn impressed! (u muz be damnsick of this) grinz and winks frm pamela =D

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Dear 34, It's the end of the year and it's been a crazy mad rush with me and all therubbish that the end of term brings. Anyway, I'd like to say somethings to youguys and since we haven't really have had a chance to meet- the full class, Imean, this is the only way to do it. I know your results haven't been really fantastic and I've been giving you a lotof heat about it. Thing is it really was a shock. Your actual class ranking forGP dropped 17 notches from 19 to 36 so there you are. It's quite scary. Buthaving said that, I believe in you guys and I believe that you guys can actuallymake it, instead of "cannot make it". And I really believe that, despite thefact that I get annoyed with you and tell you guys off for being distracted andcomplacent. I'm not saying you guys are, all the time, sometimes yes, that much you have toadmit as well..:), but beneath all that, I've seen the ability in you toactually do well and I want you to, during the holidays, reach into yourselvesand actually pull that out again. It's time you took responsibility for yourresults, both good and bad and thought about it. So, spend the holidays well, rest but don't forget the big challenge that willbe next year. Next year's going to be tough and I promise you that we'll weatherthrough it together, but I need you guys to bring your own umbrellas as well- ifyou get what I mean-, I'll be there to help and to lead the way, but you do yourpart too. And, I also want to say thank you, for your messages and your little cards,thank you for the times you've put in effort. They have not gone unnoticed. Seeyou next year and if you need to get in touch with me during the holidays, youknow how. With a warm heart for everyone of you, Ms Ng