Saturday, October 01, 2005
Havenot been blogging for a long time.
NO mood. I will say.
Had a hectic life for the past two weeks.
First week, i was sad and really lost.
Second week, i was annoyed and really frustrated.
One part of me, was asking myself HOW HOW HOW?
Should i just fly over to another country and get myself invisible?
Or should i...
The situation is getting more complicated and dramatic
Very, very, dramatic.
But when everything that u have seen in the tv has become a part of ur life.
Nothing is dramatic.
Instead, you felt threatening.
I am trying to put everthing to a fullstop.
But this two weeks has been a hell distratrous for we two, especially my mom.
She is storng.
Much stronger than i can imagine.
But come to the security of her son.
She seems so vulnerable.
There are lots of ppl concerning abt us.
To them, i really thankz them from the bottom of my heart.
There are lots of ppl wanting us to disappear from this world.
To them, i am laughing at ur greediness.
Class has been normal,
But my heart has been floating ups and downs.
Not, not because of the results.
But, because of the classmates.
Some still want to compete the results.
Some still want blah blah blah.
What for?
Maybe when they experience what i experienced
They will realise
After all, is the HEART that matter.
The heart that u treat ppl.
The heart that u face the world.
The heart ...
* thankz Xin yan for ur concern sms, surprising i didn't expect u are really concern abt me =)
thankz zi rui for her sms when i was in malaysia also.
thankz yu ting and jin xuan for their cards also. Thankz =)
Thankz those ppl who have help me here and there.
after this, i think i am getting better at differentiating who is friend and who is classmate.
its a long entry, cos i expect myself from not blogging here for the next month or so. its time to get back my life. sutdy and exercise. whoever irritate me now, i will bite back for sure.
That's me.
NO mood. I will say.
Had a hectic life for the past two weeks.
First week, i was sad and really lost.
Second week, i was annoyed and really frustrated.
One part of me, was asking myself HOW HOW HOW?
Should i just fly over to another country and get myself invisible?
Or should i...
The situation is getting more complicated and dramatic
Very, very, dramatic.
But when everything that u have seen in the tv has become a part of ur life.
Nothing is dramatic.
Instead, you felt threatening.
I am trying to put everthing to a fullstop.
But this two weeks has been a hell distratrous for we two, especially my mom.
She is storng.
Much stronger than i can imagine.
But come to the security of her son.
She seems so vulnerable.
There are lots of ppl concerning abt us.
To them, i really thankz them from the bottom of my heart.
There are lots of ppl wanting us to disappear from this world.
To them, i am laughing at ur greediness.
Class has been normal,
But my heart has been floating ups and downs.
Not, not because of the results.
But, because of the classmates.
Some still want to compete the results.
Some still want blah blah blah.
What for?
Maybe when they experience what i experienced
They will realise
After all, is the HEART that matter.
The heart that u treat ppl.
The heart that u face the world.
The heart ...
* thankz Xin yan for ur concern sms, surprising i didn't expect u are really concern abt me =)
thankz zi rui for her sms when i was in malaysia also.
thankz yu ting and jin xuan for their cards also. Thankz =)
Thankz those ppl who have help me here and there.
after this, i think i am getting better at differentiating who is friend and who is classmate.
its a long entry, cos i expect myself from not blogging here for the next month or so. its time to get back my life. sutdy and exercise. whoever irritate me now, i will bite back for sure.
That's me.