难过 是因为闷了很久 是因为想了太多 是心理起了作用
你说 苦笑常常陪著你 在一起有点勉强 该不该现在休了我
不想太多 我想一定是我 听错弄错搞错 拜托 我想是你的脑袋有问题
随便说说 其实我早已经猜透看透 不想多说 只是我怕眼泪撑不住
不懂 你的黑色幽默 想通 却又再考倒我
说散 你想很久了吧 我不想拆穿你
当作 是你开的玩笑 想通 却又再考倒我
说散 你想很久了吧 败给你的黑色幽默
我的认真 败给黑色幽默

I am proud of you

I care about you

I miss you

I want to be with you

I hope you aren't in trouble

I am thankful for the support you have provided

I want to hold your hand

I want you to be happy

I hope you are not too cold, or too hot

I want to hug you

I love you

I am thinking of you and smiling

I want to be your shoulder to cry on

I think the world of you

I will protect you

I will do anything for you

I am praising God for you

I want to tell you how much you care to me

I want to share my dreams with you

I want you to hold me in your arms

I wish I could STOP time because of you

I love you for who you are

I love the way you make me feel

I need your support and encouragement

I want you to know I am here for you

I stayed up all night thinking about you

I am alive because of you

I want to be with you

I have faith in you



Its a sad thing that i will not be able to tell all these thing that i wanted to tell you =(

So why did I cry
When you waved good-bye?
They ask me why?
I just don't know.
It's Goodybe, adios, ciao, adieu.
I needed a love
It could have been from you

I feel like screaming out F words now...
F the whole things that ruined my day today...
F the econ lectures, tutorials and tmr test
F the PE teachers.. both of U
F the whole damn shit tt i am suffering now......
Arghhh......... FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

Woke up early in the moring.. did some work here and there..
but haven't study even a bit of Econ.. next week got test le...
die.. who can help me ? Arghhh...

I am chosen to take part in TJC SportsExcel Mentoring Programme..
or something like tt one...
eventot i didn't apply fot tt sports scholarship (scholars can get $600~$800 per year under this scholarships lei)...
but i am asked to take part in it... also dunnoe why...
hahhhah.... i am pair up with Ronnie, and our mentor is Marcus Ng..
the national player in Water Polo team... heard he is quite famous lah.. i dunnoe also... have u all heard about this guy before?
hahhha.... he is my mentor now, and we are going to meet him this wednesday afternoon... hahhha.... nervous!

Then we are asked by school teachers to prepare some background info abt him first, before we meet up with him...

so just now i went to google.com to seach for Marcus Ng
......
i typed Marcus Ng, and press the Enter
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then the search results come out
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then i click on it.......DOTS (-_-")
......
advice ppl dun take a look at this website...
at least dun dry this at home...ha

wah... xin yan u bot so many things of course u r broke now...
but i abit envy u lohz... buy so much things... got so much $ to spend... hahha... i even need to consdier a while when i wanted to buy New paper...hahhha... joking lah....

To eileen ee.. erm.. i really know what happened to u these days lah..
cos we rarely tok to each other now and then... but can tell u were quite low adn down these few days... hope u can better next week..
a fresh week... hahhha.. Tomorrow will be better, tt's what i alwasys bluff myself =P
oh ya... and i am the only child too.. so some how can guess what u thinking or "suffering" now...

Went back to GESS to paly basketabll...
zhong wei, yong meng, matthew, ruiteck, wei lun, zhi min, yow lun all went back..hahhha... sort of didn't meet up for qutie a long time..
ha... nice to play bball with they all...hahhahha...
very nice really...... even i can't really run or jump with my injuried ankle... but well we still played unitl very happy...
hahhha... my three point really not bad lei... hahhha.. Ooopss
btw saw ah san now got white hairs already... tsk tsk tsk
time really flow fast....

Tonnes of hw waiting for me.. next week still got two or three tests?
can't really bother with it ...haiz... econ is really a headache for me...study study study! haiz... dots.... sianz... sigh...

Why make me fall for u when you can't be with me ?
Hmmmm.... quite touching...

Headache...busy...life sucks.....!
Only slept for three to four hours last nights...
sigh... miss basketabll again.. dunnoe why so fast!
Anyway i really should be resting well at home until my ankle is fully recover before i touch the basektabll again...
Think will go for a swim later...
hahha... btw i just went to play tennis at Dennis house...ha

Tmr is the A boy Basketball Chamipionship Final...
HCJC vs SAJC... Good luck to everyone who is playing tmr...
especially Gabriel, Hong Yi, Yong Meng, Hui Jie, Quan Ju, Eugiene..etc
hahhha...
I dun care who will win tmr (think HCJC will win, anyone wanna bet with me ?)... i just hope tt tmr i will catch a good show...hahhha...
Tmr can skip two tutorials again to go down toapayoh to receive the prize.. so happy....
All the best dudes......take care =)

In whatever we do in life we have many choices. It's juz that sometimes many people choose to believe the easiest or most popular choice is the best choice, however i am the odd one.

Many ppl keep asking me why i didn't want to go SAJC to play basketabll... or maybe HCJC or AJC and blah blah blah....
I just smiled and told them that oh.. cos SAJC is too far away from my house and so on...
But deep in my heart, i have my own reasons...
and my answer is just in tt phrase....

I have no regret coming to TJC... instead i felt so blessed here...
hahhha... ya... so what we lost to AJC by four pts yesterday?
so wad we get a fouth in National level...?
I have already gave my best.. especially the last two games (semi-final and thrid&fourth placing) I really have no regret at all...
For those who have seen me palying for that two games, really know waht i am talking about... For those who didn't see me palying for that two games, i really can proudly tell u that i really played well.. I have no regret at all... =)

This morning was in a state of rage?
ok.. not tt serious... but was really really pekcek abt my class....
No one wants to participate in the SC investiture...
Even those who are free also gave me those kind of stupid excuses..
what can i do? Keep begging ppl to go.. keep sms and ask who are free?
Who am i ? An Indonesian Maid of 34/04 ah...
Haiz...

Had a plate of chicken chop from the wetern food stall..
Quite nice and full...
But...went home.........lao sai :(

I dunnoe why someone doubt abt my injury...
do i look fake mei? U think i so rich spend twenty bucks happy happy go and see tie da for fun de ah...
I sprained my ankle during the third quarter on wednesdasy (VS SAJC)
I didn't tell anyone.. i just tighten my shoelaces and continued playing... I got to fight on... i dun want to sit on the bench and i dun want to give up.. and tt's why i didn't tell anyone at tt time yet!

Whatever lah... i really got no mood now... haiz...
TMR those who are goign to see the match... pls dun exepect me to play well... i will try my best... but i dun have motivation now..
i will go down to the basketball court near by my house now...
to find some inspiration i think....
haiz.... 34/04 pls be more cooperated... thankz....
I know i didnt do a good job as a CG rep for this term..
i am really stressed up and busy with Competition... sorrie..sigh

Now at home slacking...
watching NBA.... lakers won...=)
Whole body aching.... tired.... disappointed also...
can't walk properly... sigh....

Today went to sch only attend the cleaning and first lesson..
Skipped three lectures in a row to stay in HUB and canteen...
Done some bo liao things... like copy maths and did my Chinese correction... bo bian.. no mood to attend any lessons.. competition stress i guess ?
was frozed in the HUB..... it was DAMN cold.... buay ta han..really

Dennis only came to school at around eleven plus...
hey.. thankz for ur nail clippers.. ha =)
Accomany him to look for Lucozyte after the lunch..
we went to three 7-11 and countless of mamashop...
but still coudn't find it... we like walking from the sch all the way to Bedok MRT station there.... so paiseh.. shouldn't ask u to look for Lucozyte one.. sorry lah....:P

Nice game with SAJC...really nice.... eventot we lost by 6 pts...
i played well....at least quite well...really...hahhha...
not i said one hor... ppl said one =P
but still lose lah...... haiz......but wo you jin li qu da hor...
i spraiend my rihgt ankle at the beiging of the third quarter...
sigh..... TMD.. dun think tmr i can take PE and trianing...

Was really quite down after the match... ya.. is really like "so near yet so far"... very tired... but everyone has play their best le..
so there wun be any regret for us.... we had more mistakes than them and that's why we lost...we should learn our mistakes and correct it as soon as possible.. tt's is more impt!

Surprisingly my juniors was there.. Yow lun, Rui Teck and Chin yong...
hahhha.. they are having thier mid year exam right now.. and yet they came and support me today... so touched... hahhha...tanzk ya dudes

All the year two players were really sad in the bus when we reutrn to TJC.... i saw lots of them using the towels to cover up thier face....
haiz......Dennis was annoyed by the noise level created by the girls... he threw an empty water bottle to them....
but somehow the water bottle flew to me..... shuay (^_^")

Btw, surprisingly, when we reached the school... there is one girl wearing the TJC unifrom came forward and said "Jun xian, jin tian ni da de hen hao oh...hahha" then she quickly ran away with her friend...
hahhha...i dun even know who is she and how she knows my name...
dun even know she is year 1 or year 2....hahahhha...


After that we whole team went to Tampinese Mall to eat Mac and wathced the movie "Blood Brother".....
I saw Elieen Ee and June there also..
this two girls always shopping here and there one... tsk tsk
Anyway, the show was damn nice lohz.. marvellous
i strongly recommented everyone to watch the "Blood Brother"
I hope i can get tt kind of friendships too......ha

After the meals, arcades and movie... everyone's mood is getting better.. we even cheered inside the Cienam after the show ends...
hahhaha.... so paiseh.... We are fresh again..
and Saturday we are goign to play well and win the match no matter wad... Just like what allen always like to say "we are going to fuck them upside down, and inside out" hahhha.....sorrie.. abit rude the words here... but tt's his fav sentence lah......

Watiting for my mom to use the chiense medicine to rub my ankle....
I need to rest and calm down... if these days i behave strangely..
just dun mind me...hahhha..... competition STRESS mah...
saw eileen fu's blog just now...
hahhha...the words she used also qutie vulgar...
f*** here nad there.......... (^_^")

Some qutei headache problems happened in my class recently...
but i really got no time to settle lhoz......
haiz...... my works are slacking behind and i am still here bloggin...
haiz....

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海阔天空
曲：Hun Lim/Jun Young Choi | 词：姚若龙 |

我曾怀疑我 走在沙漠中 从不结果 无论种什么梦
才张开翅膀 风却便沉默 习惯伤痛能不能 算收获
庆幸的是我 一直没回头 终于发现 真的是有绿洲
每把汗流了 生命变的厚重 走出沮丧才看见 新宇宙
海阔天空 在勇敢以后 要拿执着 将命运的所打破
冷漠的人 谢谢你们曾经看轻我 让我不低头 更精采的活
凌晨的窗口 失眠整夜以后 看着黎明 从云里抬起了头
日落是沉潜 日出是成熟 只要是光一定会 灿烂的
海阔天空 在勇敢以后 要拿执着 将命运的所打破
海阔天空 狂风暴雨以后 转过头 对旧心酸一笑而过
最懂我的人 谢谢一路默默的陪着我
让我拥有好故事可以说 看未来 一步步来了

As a playmaker, your job is more than to score, to shoot the three points. Your responsibility is to control the whole situation on the ocurt and bring up the mood and create the atmosphere for your teammates. No doubt you are a very good player, you are skillful and talented, however you are lacking the leadership, teamwork and the baility to calm down when the team is playing badly. You got frustrated when you felt that the whole team is not playing well, you are not in the good shape. The sad thing is that, you choose to blame the fault to others instead of correcting it yourself first. Or maybe is it that becasue you can't even see your mistakes yourself? Now is the time for you to cool down and think what you should do and how could you change the present situation? TEAMWORK is the keyword to success, be confident in your teammates and encourage them when they are down. You can fault people that they are not playing well, but did u play well in the first place? Be smart, you got to bring yourself up to another level, you are capable of doing better and yet sadly you fail to do it. You may think that what i typed here is to criticize you or whatever it is, but just hope that you can be more mature in palying baksetball; this is a five-men game not a one-man show. You are equipped with an outstanding skills and an incredible jumping power, but you forget to be humble. If you want your opponents to respect you, then in the first place you have to respect them. If you want your teammates to listen to you, then in the first place you got to do is to lend your ears to them. This is the world of reality, we have the same dream and goal, and that is why wer are here, wearing the same jerseys. I do not want to voice out anthing because at this period of time we must bunch together like a rugby scrum and fight as a team, but it is also my duty as a teammate to mention all this here. You can do it, and if you can do it, there is nothing impossible to stop us from clinching the glory. Remember, only you can bring us up, and being in the top 4 now is not the ending, the game has just started. =)

~ Written by Chun Hsien 09.05.2004 01:37AM