" 藉 口 "

翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现

去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜

看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见

来不及听见 你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我 也许已经很难回头

我知道自己错过 请再给我一个理由

说你不爱我 就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我

请不要把分手当作你的请求

我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口

请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后

就算没有结果 我也能够承受

我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺

你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容

如果要走 请你记得我 如果难过 请你忘了我

Quite a long long time didn't manage to blog...
cos i was tired and tired and tired.... quite a number of things happend during this period...
and i dunnoe how i manage to survive unitl now...

I am not a crying baby, but i broke down one of the night when i was talking to my mom...
dunnoe exactly wad happened le.. just so many thing tt i felt so messed up...
crying is not a solution, but after crying, it makes me feel stronger.....

As for basketball, i do think tt i am recovering from "down-slope" period... but i still think our training is not "intensive" enough... quite slack... but ya.... it is still as tired as usual lah...
i need time, i need time to be calm down and study.. i want stduy cos i need to pass promote..
then after the promote exam then i can focus on training and finding part time jobs to do to earn $.. but.. ya.. got to concentrate on the promote exam first lah...

Quite a BAD period for me lah... maybe i was too ****** ** by something ya.... some ppl felt tt i have changed my character in some way... and ya i am also being condemned by someone as the following:

Thursday, August 19, 2004
Sick and Tired

I hav nv seen such PETTY and IRRITATING GUY!!!!!!!!!! Hell…he has been getting onto my nerves…. I m so irked by his reaction and actions……EXTREMELY IRKED!!! His behaviour has destroyed my first impression of him…he everything disgusts me…yesh…I am totally GROOSED out…

………………..

im so sick and tired of U!

getting irked by some pple...just some immature, fussy and sensitive asshole... i duno how am i going to survive with these idiots ard... pls.. get a life pple..

i just realised how good is my temper... cos she is still alive....

Where have i gone wrong? ha... maybe in the first place when i just enterd the class few months ago... i should not be too nice to them....cos when after tt when u are unhappy and show them the "bo chap" and "yea..." tt kind of faces... u will be condemned like hell...

i am wrong....
really... i am too nice to ppl le....
one day...
i should have...
really throw my anger
and give them some piece of minds....
but... but... will i do tt ?
or... should i do tt?
after all they are just girls...
and i am on the weeker side...
i should not have step in this calssroom...
somehow.. i miss the old friends of mine... old classmates... and lots more....

Give me some of ur ideas if u r willing to share with me..

i miss you
. . . . .
really
. . . . .
really
. . . . .
Dun go
. . . . .
Come
. . . . .
Come to my arms
. . . . .
My dear
















MY dear is ............................................................................$ MONEY $ lah....

it has been a while since that day..
but i will always remember..
remember your face, your smile and of course..YOU

i miss you, is because i like you so i miss you
i like you, is because you are special so i like you
i hope for nothing but yet thinking of miracle
it has been a while since that day..

it was under the lights that shone upon us
it was the kindness of the surrounding
it was them who brought us temporary together
it was the moment i have been waiting for
it was a dream i could never dream of

i never felt this way before
but I can't break through
if the sun should refuse to rise,
the moon doesn't hang in the night
and when the world is through
i will still dream of you


extracted from rui teck's blog.... very de nice...

dear all... my phone number has been terminated...
so going to change my phone no with a new subscribtion of new line..
sorrie if i missed out any of ur calls and msgs..
will tell u all my new number again when i get it...
hopefully by tmr lah.... HOPEFULLY

bad day... without hp... sigh

EVERTYTIME

notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers
when our love is strong
Why carry on without me

everytime i try to fly,
i fall Without my wings,
i feel so small i guess i need you, baby

and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, it's haunting me i guess
i need you, baby

i make believe that you are here
it's the only way i see clear
What have i done you
seem to move on easy

and everytime i try to fly,
i fall Without my wings,
i feel so small i guess i need you, baby

and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting me
i guess i need you, baby

i may have made it rain please forgive me
my weakness caused you pain
and this song's my sorry at night
i pray that soon your face will fade away

and everytime i try to fly,
i fall Without my wings,
i feel so smalli guess i need you, baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting
me i guess i need you, baby



Finally i borke down last night... feel much more easier and "lighter" now... mugging for econ test tmr... jia you =)

+++A PaSSAGEwAy+++

As I walk down that saddened road
Tears beat in my eyes
Was it the sand gust
Or was it my shattered heart

The wind rustles the tree leaves
The rustles fiddled with my mind
I saw you smiling
I saw you coming

Your sleazy look
The citrus fragrance you wear
That tire smile
So ever warm my heart

That familar warmth from ya hand
The never ending complain of ya bad day
The constant cute little gerly act
The comforting and soothing feeling of you in my arms

You are here...
You are not...

For now that you are gone
Your smile and laughters still in my mind
I miss you
I want you back

For now that you are gone
I save my love for you
My tears I swallow back into my heart
Stored in a vial locked deepest down in my heart

Went to orchard and play arcade, the memory flows back... i cant beat u... i miss the time when we play arcade together... the time crisis, the spot the diffence and so on.... i can't even dare to hold the gun, cos it remind me of u..... =(

yesterday, a great great friend of mine, brough me up to SUNTECT SUMMIT, which is 46 level high? or even higher? Very nice view there, very cooling cos the wind keep blowing at u, u feel like u r the king of the world when u standing up there... really... i felt much enlighten and much relaxed when i was there... wish to stay there longer... but i scare i will broke down and cried out there... =X

This world is full or reality.. my mother keep complaing mei2 you3 qian2... but what can i do ? stop it ok... i know we got to be jie2 shen3... but aiya... u ah... ARGHHHH... sometime really get on my nerves.... dunno wad to say lah.... i really hope tt i can strike a lottery or wad and stuff my house with full of money... oh... just realised i can't draw any money out from ATM, cos i am broke... great right...

BAD WEEKS BAD DAYS BAD TIMING......... i starts to doubt my values to others... i dunnoe...
where is my proud, where is my self instinct, where is the usual cofident CHUN HSIEN....
i can't find it now... merely survice thru the hardships... sighhh... guess i wun be toking much in sch for these days bah....

TO yq,
i am not getting impulsive lah... just tt i am too tired, and u know wad had happend to me recently... so ya... sorrie sorrie... i will be more patient now ok....