Fallen
forever i guess is a fictional word that makes fantasy complete. when you love someone, you will deny the truth and believe in the lies. time passes. life happens. distance separates. don't think that you know so much about me. i am not who i may seem to be. don't prick on me, don't push me, because i can't take it. i will re-bark hard if i want to, but seems that more often than not i just mellow and drown myself... immensely hurt within, broken and screaming for a voice. don't give me the option to drift and walk away entirely, because i would want to stay and be this way. the past is meant to be used as a tool for the future. bad experiences indeed made me bitter but the lessons learnt should make me better. i am happy to be who i am. love is living, making life better and treasuring myself. love is in my head, but freedom is my soul. i don't like to change and i won't change... i won't be broken again. i've got to breathe. I can't keep going under. it's just me.
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Monday, October 11, 2004
Finding the true identity.....
To Jun Xian,
Jun xian, jun xian ah.. sometime i really pity you... when u r nicer to ppl... ppl think u r "IRRITATING"; when u dind't bother abt them at all... ppl say u r "acting dao"....
hahha... PROMO has fnished... i know u had did ur best, the results is not tt answer, cos what matter most is the process, the hardwork u had put in!
The loniness still filled with heart... sometime i doubt who is my true friend... the person closer to u can hurt u the most.. guess i am always stupid enough to make friends around, but actaully they just treating u as a piece of shit....hahhahha... stupid me!
Guess sometime i am too concern abt others le, always put them as my first priority, and end up losing out my soul..my identity.
Yesterday went to MPCC to play basketball... play four-four.. i was the youngest among the team.. cos the rest of them are all "ah-pek". hahhha... buy ya i am the weakest link among them lor... they were fierce, agrresive, competitive and ya... all sort of dirty tricks all came out.
pushing, elbowing, tricking ah... all the nonsense were there... and it seems like a battle field more than a basketball court lor... ^_^"
This morning went to Bedok sports hall paly badminton, it has been a long time that i play a badminton match.. hahhha.. got three pairs of uncles came and challenge us lei... hahhha.. uncle again... we lost two and won one... hahhahha... the most impt things is tt all the uncles said i played very good lor, very fast in response and the smashing is powerful also =D
hahaha... then i was like keep sliding here and there to save the "shuttle-cock" hahha...
now my butt pain like tearing apart and my right around basically cannot move around =X
Erm... so ppl out ther who dunnoe me tt well.... hahhha... NEVER NEVER underestimate my sports ability... never say I AM a nerd, cos it will cause a great insult only to urself.... hahhhha...
sounds abit arrogrant here... bleah =P
Miss all my old friends around.. especially GESS 4J 2002/2003.. hope they are doing fine...
and hope can meet up with them soon! Like to bitch around with them...hahhhha... and never froget the basketball team also... hahhha.. HEY, did coach owe us a trip to Genting? hahhhha....
Grinz
To Jun Xian,
Jun xian, jun xian ah.. sometime i really pity you... when u r nicer to ppl... ppl think u r "IRRITATING"; when u dind't bother abt them at all... ppl say u r "acting dao"....
hahha... PROMO has fnished... i know u had did ur best, the results is not tt answer, cos what matter most is the process, the hardwork u had put in!
The loniness still filled with heart... sometime i doubt who is my true friend... the person closer to u can hurt u the most.. guess i am always stupid enough to make friends around, but actaully they just treating u as a piece of shit....hahhahha... stupid me!
Guess sometime i am too concern abt others le, always put them as my first priority, and end up losing out my soul..my identity.
Yesterday went to MPCC to play basketball... play four-four.. i was the youngest among the team.. cos the rest of them are all "ah-pek". hahhha... buy ya i am the weakest link among them lor... they were fierce, agrresive, competitive and ya... all sort of dirty tricks all came out.
pushing, elbowing, tricking ah... all the nonsense were there... and it seems like a battle field more than a basketball court lor... ^_^"
This morning went to Bedok sports hall paly badminton, it has been a long time that i play a badminton match.. hahhha.. got three pairs of uncles came and challenge us lei... hahhha.. uncle again... we lost two and won one... hahhahha... the most impt things is tt all the uncles said i played very good lor, very fast in response and the smashing is powerful also =D
hahaha... then i was like keep sliding here and there to save the "shuttle-cock" hahha...
now my butt pain like tearing apart and my right around basically cannot move around =X
Erm... so ppl out ther who dunnoe me tt well.... hahhha... NEVER NEVER underestimate my sports ability... never say I AM a nerd, cos it will cause a great insult only to urself.... hahhhha...
sounds abit arrogrant here... bleah =P
Miss all my old friends around.. especially GESS 4J 2002/2003.. hope they are doing fine...
and hope can meet up with them soon! Like to bitch around with them...hahhhha... and never froget the basketball team also... hahhha.. HEY, did coach owe us a trip to Genting? hahhhha....
Grinz
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