The Profound Parental Love
~Sign Language Musical Drama
Special Performance for Students (S$10)
01/07/2006/2:30pm
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Friday, May 12, 2006
When i went home and took my shower, Ah seng came and told me that his school needs him to apply Australia Visa in order to go to Australia next month. Since ah seng is living here, so i think we are responsible to help him settle the visa here.
However, the dear mama lee, doesn't think so. She thinks that this is not OUR business, and she refuses to help ah seng to settle the visa. She said "wo3 yo4 bu4 hui4, rang4 ta1 zi4 ji3 xiang3 ban4 fa3 lor"
I was like "HALO~", ah seng staying here to let you earn money, then you still showing this kind of self-fish attitute. If such little thing, you also refused to help, then next time who will want to stay at our house? -_-'
I was really turn off by her words. And i told her, ah seng is living at our house, and he is paying the rent, so we should try to help him as much as possible, to make this place feel like a home for him. Of course, she couldn't listen in, and walked off to her room. And now i am printing out the "Application to visit Australia for toruism" for ah seng.
I know mama lee is a great person. She has many qualities that i really admire. But one thing is that, some how, she is too self centered. In her world, there are only two things, Me and Herself. She even puts me on top of her priority list. There is a very thin line between "caring" and "controlling".
She doesn't play mahjong and go shopping like a tai tai. She could, but she didn't.She always used ME as an excuse for not going dinners with her friends. She always said "sorry, i can't go. Because i have to take care of my child, even thought everyone know I am 19 already! " She doesn't initiate to call or contact her friends unless necessary, and she never writes back to her friends' greeting cards.The worst thing is that, she complains to me she doesn't have a friend!
"Can i go oversea alone or with my friends?" i asked.
"No" she answered.
"Can i stay overnight at my friend's house?" i asked
"No" she asnwered.
"Can i watch a mid night movie?" i asked
"No" she asnwered.
"Can i dye hair?" i asked
"No" she answered.
"Can i...." i asked
"No.... no.... and No...." she answered.
Too many choices in my life. Are made by her.I am 19. And i am going to a university. I am doing good. I have a good mother.
Once, I asked her : "when will u let me do what i want, choose what i like"
She said : "soon... soon... "
I belive ten years down the road, or maybe 20, 30 ... years later
Her answer is still : "soon... soon..."
I asked her again : "when will you feel comfortable to let me be independent"
She said : ".... "
I asked : "why?"
She said : "Because i have nothing buy you now, and i can't afford to lose you."
That's the ultimate powerful sentence in the world. And i know i have to take that.My lips sealed, and i know i can't blame her for that.
Now is 12:32AM, she is shouting from her bedroom to ask me to sleep. Fine! I wonder does it occur to her that i have no school tmr and currently i am having a long holiday.
Mother's day is coming. I know I love her as much as I do belive. seriously, I do love her. But, some how, i dun feel like i am being myself. oh well~ HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
However, the dear mama lee, doesn't think so. She thinks that this is not OUR business, and she refuses to help ah seng to settle the visa. She said "wo3 yo4 bu4 hui4, rang4 ta1 zi4 ji3 xiang3 ban4 fa3 lor"
I was like "HALO~", ah seng staying here to let you earn money, then you still showing this kind of self-fish attitute. If such little thing, you also refused to help, then next time who will want to stay at our house? -_-'
I was really turn off by her words. And i told her, ah seng is living at our house, and he is paying the rent, so we should try to help him as much as possible, to make this place feel like a home for him. Of course, she couldn't listen in, and walked off to her room. And now i am printing out the "Application to visit Australia for toruism" for ah seng.
I know mama lee is a great person. She has many qualities that i really admire. But one thing is that, some how, she is too self centered. In her world, there are only two things, Me and Herself. She even puts me on top of her priority list. There is a very thin line between "caring" and "controlling".
She doesn't play mahjong and go shopping like a tai tai. She could, but she didn't.She always used ME as an excuse for not going dinners with her friends. She always said "sorry, i can't go. Because i have to take care of my child, even thought everyone know I am 19 already! " She doesn't initiate to call or contact her friends unless necessary, and she never writes back to her friends' greeting cards.The worst thing is that, she complains to me she doesn't have a friend!
"Can i go oversea alone or with my friends?" i asked.
"No" she answered.
"Can i stay overnight at my friend's house?" i asked
"No" she asnwered.
"Can i watch a mid night movie?" i asked
"No" she asnwered.
"Can i dye hair?" i asked
"No" she answered.
"Can i...." i asked
"No.... no.... and No...." she answered.
Too many choices in my life. Are made by her.I am 19. And i am going to a university. I am doing good. I have a good mother.
Once, I asked her : "when will u let me do what i want, choose what i like"
She said : "soon... soon... "
I belive ten years down the road, or maybe 20, 30 ... years later
Her answer is still : "soon... soon..."
I asked her again : "when will you feel comfortable to let me be independent"
She said : ".... "
I asked : "why?"
She said : "Because i have nothing buy you now, and i can't afford to lose you."
That's the ultimate powerful sentence in the world. And i know i have to take that.My lips sealed, and i know i can't blame her for that.
Now is 12:32AM, she is shouting from her bedroom to ask me to sleep. Fine! I wonder does it occur to her that i have no school tmr and currently i am having a long holiday.
Mother's day is coming. I know I love her as much as I do belive. seriously, I do love her. But, some how, i dun feel like i am being myself. oh well~ HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Name 3 schools you went to :
- Fu xing primary school
- Gan Eng Seng School
- Temasek Junior College
Name 3 things in your wallet :
- EZ link card
- POSB ATM card
- Picture of my father
Name 3 things you always wear :
- T shirt
- Cap
- Specs
Name 3 favorite fruits :
- Watermelon
- Banana
- Mango
Name 3 places you want to go on vacation :
- USA
- HK
- Japan
Name 3 things that scare you :
- Taking exams
- Losing my loved one
- Misunderstadning by others
Name 3 plans for tomorrow :
- Give tuition
- Play basketabll
- Tidy up my room
Name 3 career choices :
- School teacher
- News reporter
- Businessman
Name 3 things you are addcited to :
- Iced Milo
- Feng Yun comics
- Playing basketabll
Name 3 things you like to do :
- Sleeping
- Lose weight
- Earn more money
- Fu xing primary school
- Gan Eng Seng School
- Temasek Junior College
Name 3 things in your wallet :
- EZ link card
- POSB ATM card
- Picture of my father
Name 3 things you always wear :
- T shirt
- Cap
- Specs
Name 3 favorite fruits :
- Watermelon
- Banana
- Mango
Name 3 places you want to go on vacation :
- USA
- HK
- Japan
Name 3 things that scare you :
- Taking exams
- Losing my loved one
- Misunderstadning by others
Name 3 plans for tomorrow :
- Give tuition
- Play basketabll
- Tidy up my room
Name 3 career choices :
- School teacher
- News reporter
- Businessman
Name 3 things you are addcited to :
- Iced Milo
- Feng Yun comics
- Playing basketabll
Name 3 things you like to do :
- Sleeping
- Lose weight
- Earn more money
Saturday, May 06, 2006
It's Up To Me
I get discouraged now and then
when there are clouds of grey.
Until I think about the things
that happened yesterdasy.
I do not mean the day before,
or those months ago.
But all the yesterdays in which
I had a chance to grow.
I think of opportunities that
I allowed to fall aside.
And those I took advantage of
before they passed me by.
And i remember that the past
presented qutie a plight.
But somehow I endured it and
the future seemed all right.
And i remind myself that
I a mcapable and free,
And my success and
Happiness are really up to me.
I get discouraged now and then
when there are clouds of grey.
Until I think about the things
that happened yesterdasy.
I do not mean the day before,
or those months ago.
But all the yesterdays in which
I had a chance to grow.
I think of opportunities that
I allowed to fall aside.
And those I took advantage of
before they passed me by.
And i remember that the past
presented qutie a plight.
But somehow I endured it and
the future seemed all right.
And i remind myself that
I a mcapable and free,
And my success and
Happiness are really up to me.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
WHAT HAVE I DONE IN THE APRIL 2006
*Went for the referee graduation lunch at european association
* Gave 27 lessons of tuitions
* Had 5 basketabll sessions at TJC
* Finished reading 5 books
* Finished reading 14 comics
* Watched 2 movies at Bugis with mother ( Keeping mum and Inside man)
* Extend my student pass
* Received payment for being a mystery shopper last month
* Had 16 games of basketabll referee experiences
* Refereed the Street Basketabll Gala 2006 Men Open Final
* Had 7 games of waterpolo table official experiences
* Went for two NTU interviews
* Went for NTU tea party
* Had a dim sum buffet
* Had a fish head steam boat with yang
* Bought a brown colour long sleeve shirt for 80 dollars (not for myself !!!)
* Got myself a new phone (panasonic VS6)
* Brought my cousin to tour around Singapore
* Changed my keyboard to black colour
*Went for the referee graduation lunch at european association
* Gave 27 lessons of tuitions
* Had 5 basketabll sessions at TJC
* Finished reading 5 books
* Finished reading 14 comics
* Watched 2 movies at Bugis with mother ( Keeping mum and Inside man)
* Extend my student pass
* Received payment for being a mystery shopper last month
* Had 16 games of basketabll referee experiences
* Refereed the Street Basketabll Gala 2006 Men Open Final
* Had 7 games of waterpolo table official experiences
* Went for two NTU interviews
* Went for NTU tea party
* Had a dim sum buffet
* Had a fish head steam boat with yang
* Bought a brown colour long sleeve shirt for 80 dollars (not for myself !!!)
* Got myself a new phone (panasonic VS6)
* Brought my cousin to tour around Singapore
* Changed my keyboard to black colour
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