it's been a eventful year with so many changes in my life and so many ups and downs along the way. one of the busiest and most challenging year of my life - it's school work, basketball and family throughout and i'm still amazed i'm surviving. in fact, still strong and managing well (at least that is what i think). 2005's the year that i made many differences and faught many battles till i've been so caught up i forgot to take a break. Just want to keep this entry short and simple, let's pray we have a good A level results and wish everyone of us have a great 2006 ahead =)

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Havenot been blogging for a long time.

NO mood. I will say.

Had a hectic life for the past two weeks.

First week, i was sad and really lost.

Second week, i was annoyed and really frustrated.

One part of me, was asking myself HOW HOW HOW?

Should i just fly over to another country and get myself invisible?

Or should i...

The situation is getting more complicated and dramatic

Very, very, dramatic.

But when everything that u have seen in the tv has become a part of ur life.

Nothing is dramatic.

Instead, you felt threatening.

I am trying to put everthing to a fullstop.

But this two weeks has been a hell distratrous for we two, especially my mom.

She is storng.

Much stronger than i can imagine.

But come to the security of her son.

She seems so vulnerable.

There are lots of ppl concerning abt us.

To them, i really thankz them from the bottom of my heart.

There are lots of ppl wanting us to disappear from this world.

To them, i am laughing at ur greediness.

Class has been normal,

But my heart has been floating ups and downs.

Not, not because of the results.

But, because of the classmates.

Some still want to compete the results.

Some still want blah blah blah.

What for?

Maybe when they experience what i experienced

They will realise

After all, is the HEART that matter.

The heart that u treat ppl.

The heart that u face the world.

The heart ...




* thankz Xin yan for ur concern sms, surprising i didn't expect u are really concern abt me =)
thankz zi rui for her sms when i was in malaysia also.
thankz yu ting and jin xuan for their cards also. Thankz =)
Thankz those ppl who have help me here and there.

after this, i think i am getting better at differentiating who is friend and who is classmate.

its a long entry, cos i expect myself from not blogging here for the next month or so. its time to get back my life. sutdy and exercise. whoever irritate me now, i will bite back for sure.
That's me.

PLEASE REMEMBER TO TREASURE YOUR LOVED

ONES WHEN THEY ARE STILL AROUND.


Give me a break.

I have more pressure to carry now.

I am up to the challenge.

You are enjoying yourself

While i am suffering all these God-knows-what-hell-damn-crap-shit by myself

Stress sets in

And i feel like just give up and break down instantly

But I can't

Maybe i should....

Brain Dead

Sometimes you feel like just pointing middle finger at everyone you saw on the street!
Exam stress? Nah, not necessary.

What is my expectation for the prelims?
I am just aiming for the pass for Econ, Math and GP
then i hope to get a C at least for LEP this time round.
Sounds like a miserable expectaion right? hahhhhha, at least i am realistic.

I am working, bit by bit, part by part. I know i am not goign to do well for the Prelim. But i will not give up =)

Life has been difficult, when u have so much things to do and so little time available. yada yada, u will say its all about TIME MANAMENT (bull shit).

Sometimes u just feel like not being treasured when you have try to do somethings good to ppl, but end up they dun appreaciate it.

Was studying at the Singapore Post's Mac, overheard some other college students complaining how Strict is their Gp tutor, how lousy is their Physics tutor, how irresponisble is their Econ tutor and blah blah. Then they keep on saying what this tutor is biased ah, that tutor is irrtating and so on. But after a few seconds of silence, they all came to a same concluusion, "I THINK I WILL STILL MISSS THEM" =) u see...

Is nice to receive a box of Vitamine B from the principal.. nice of her.. at least i know someone is concerning me? hahhha... oh well... get back to work bah

I've been feeling lazy, not enough exercise. It's disgusting to see the flabs building up. It's depressive. Got to find my motivation soon.

Mark Westlife has surprised heaps of his band's fanbase by revealing that he is gay.

The announcement came in today's Sun newspaper, and Mark went on to explain that he's never had a problem with his own sexuality, but hadn't wanted to talk about it in public because he's not the 'look at me' type.

He said: "I have never tried to hide who I am from anyone, but I'm a very private person and in the past I haven't felt the need to say anything about my sexuality."

He went on: "I want people to know the truth about my sexuality. I am gay and I'm very proud of who I am. I'm not asking for any for any sympathy, or to be a role model to anyone else. I simply felt it was the right time for me to let people know the truth."

Mark also revealed that he's currently in love with Kevin McDaid, who you might remember as being one of V. He said: "I would like to say that I'm happy, and that I've found someone who is a real companion. It does get lonely being on the road with the band sometimes and I'm very happy now I'm in a relationship with someone who makes me laugh."

And before anyone starts throwing words like 'brave' around, Mark was quick to explain that he's not doing this to get the approval of the general public: "I'm not worried about how people react because I'm happy being who I am."

RUDE AUNTY

Was typing this post while my house phone rang.

I picked up the phone and said politely : qing wen ni yao zhao shuai?

She said : ma ma lei?

I said : ma ma bu zai jia.

She said : ma ma qu na li.

I said : wo bu zhi dao yeah.

She EXCLAIMED : NI BU ZHI DAO ?

I said : wo zhen de bu zhi dao ah... (cos my mom has asked me not to tell this aunty where she goes)

Then she changed her tone to "pity-my-mom-has-a-son-like-me" and said: ni zhen shi qi quai de er zi, ju ran bu zhi da ni ma ma qu na li? zhen shi yi ge bu guan xin ma ma de er zi!

then i was like "huh?" what the....

but out or courtesy, i asked her to call my mom's hp, even tot at this point of time i am irritated by her already.

Then she hang up the phone without saying a good bye or thankz u.

........................................................................................................................................................................

The phone rang after 10 seconds, the same rude aunty called again :

She said : ma ma mei you kai dian hua

I replied her : orh.. na ni da dian hua jiao ta kai dian hua, zhe yang ni jiu ke ji da tong dian hua le ah

The i think she realised i was quite not happy with her.. so she gave me some dry cold luaghs and said nothing... then she hang up the phone without saing anything... oh well, feel like slapping her... gosh =X

i am giving myself a last shot.. hope it works... hmmmmm

对你

我已经仁至义尽

如果

当我

对你的一举一动

已经

麻木而不感到伤感

那你

是否

应该

为我好好的想一想

不只是朋友

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点自私的占有

你身边的女人总是美丽　

你追逐的爱情总是游戏

在你的眼里　　　　　　

我是你可以对饮言欢的朋友

你从不吝啬

催促我分享你的快乐

你开心的时候总是挥霍　

你失意的片刻总是沉默

在你的眼里　　　　　　

我是你可以依靠倾吐的朋友

你从不忘记

提醒我分担你的寂寞

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点自私的占有

你开心的时候总是挥霍

你失意的片刻总是沉默

在你的眼里　　　　　　

我是你可以依靠倾吐的朋友

你从不忘记

提醒我分担你的寂寞

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点自私的占有

想做你不变的恋人　

想做你一世的牵挂

想做你不只是朋友　

喔....喔....

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点自私的占有

Matters of the heart~

When you are caught in the situation, where you need to make that special someone happy, but, the only way to do it is to sacrifice yourself, what will you take it?









I think i will...

Ouccchhhhhh.....

When u have an immature pimple on your face, it hurts

When u have two immature pimples on your face at the same spot, it damn hurts

When u have three immature pimples on your face at the damn bloody same spot, it hurts to the hell...

I am in the hell now.. Ouuuchhh

Singapore New Vocabularies~

NKF: (verb) - to cheat, to report lower or higher figures with an intention to cheat, to report false figures.
Eg. Ah Beng NKFed his salary to impress that chio bu he was after without realizing that she NKFed her vital statistics by wearing wonder bra.

NKF: (noun) - an organization whose modus operandi are dubious.
Eg. Ah Lian left that company because she found that it is an NKF.

TT Durai: (verb) ? to secretly take and take money from company, to secretly maximize entitlements or privileges.
Eg. Ah Seng regretted not TT Durai'ing as much as possible from his ex-company before he was sacked.

peanut: (noun) ? a unit of currency equivalent to S$600,000.
Eg. The jackpot for the Toto this Thursday is 2 peanuts (S$1.2m).

The Ultimate Champion

American Lance Armstrong secured his seventh Tour de France yellow jersey in a 21-day cycling event, held over 144 kilometres from Corbeil-Essonnes to Paris on Sunday 24 Jul 2005. Armstrong, a man diagnosed in 1996 with testicular cancer that had spread to his lungs and brain was not expected to even survive the disease. Yet, he provided a dream finish to an illustrious career that ended on Sunday with his retirement. It was the sort of fairy-tale finish that every sportsperson dreams of and yet, few have managed to achieve.

Armstrong is the ultimate champion and his is a saga of a man who fought the odds, refused to give in to life-threatening adversity and finally pedalled some 3,500 kilometres in 21 days for seven consecutive years, thus setting a record that is unlikely to be matched, leave alone bettered for generations to come.

Le Tour is the most difficult and physical sporting event in the World as the cyclists traverse some of the most challenging and varying terrain anyone could imagine. In the pre-Tour build-up, experts wrote off Armstrong who, for the first time in his career was getting into the race without a single victory in the season. It was thought that the Texan was past his prime and might find the field far too competitive.

At the podium by the finishing line, with kids in hand, this was what he had to say: “The last thing I'll say to the people that don't believe in cycling, the cynics and the sceptics – I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry you can't dream big and I'm sorry you don't believe in miracles, but this is one hell of a race, this is a great sporting event and you should stand around and believe. You should believe in these athletes and you should believe in these people. And I'm a fan of the Tour de France for as long as I live and there are no secrets. This is a hard sporting event, and hard work wins it, so vive la tour forever! Thank you.

Two teardrops were floating down the river.

One teardrop said to the other:

"i’m the teardrop of the girl who loved a guy and lost him. who are you?"

The other teardrop said:

"i’m the teardrop of the guy who regretted letting the girl go..."


what would you do if the person who can make you stop crying is the person who makes you cry?

ANNUAL PHOTO TAKING

Kinda of intersting experience for me today. Since i was the only guy left in the class during the photo taking session (FYI our class only got two guys), we came out alot of funny positions. The formal one which i was surrounded by all the girls, the informal one where i carried Ms Ng like the ending of all thoseAmerican love story movies. Besides that, we also took photos where we lied down in the circle, and Ms Ng stands insides the circle. Oh~ and don't forget the Indian Guru-like positions, eventot our class dun really like erm ****ANS yah =P

Oh well, this week i have been doing my math tutorial (tut18), which i am quite proud of, should give myself a pat on my back. This is the first tutorial in the year 2005 that i have not been copying from yu ting at all =P I shuld mantain this and continue to do my math tutorial with dignity (?)

Kinda of addicted to my bed these days, i have the tendency to slept striagh away after the dinner and then wake up in the morning to realise ITS TIME FOR SCHOOL, so unbelivable right. Maybe sometimes, i just to get away from the real world and indulged myself in the world of fantasy, where there is no liar, no stress, plenty of FUN and TRUE FRIENDS, no hapyocrites, no cheating and no competition, by SLEEPING. oh well~

I am wondering what will I be like in the future if I choose to take up CHINESE study in Local University and then become a CHINESE TEACHER in Singapore. Erm. Yah. I think if I have the choice, i will like to teach in some nieghtbourhood sec. sch, where the students there may not be good and achieve what u expected from them , but at least they are easy to get along with. (Infer?)

Yah, today nearly fed up during the sch. There was one girl in my class saying somehing like : "hey, rmb to gel and stlye ur hair like today from now onwards, it looks better then ur previous UNCLE hairstyle!" I replied: "no" then her face turns black. I know she is giving me a positive feedback, but the way she speaks ah.. really turns me off. I think tt is why ppl say communicaiton skill is important bah. And, I have my own right to choose what i want and what i like to do. I dunnnoe why ppl are so surpise with my look today, just because i rarely make myself look nice in SCHOOL, doesn't mean i have not look nice OUTSIDE the school. Oh well, think i shuld stop being a petty guy and making a big fuss abt it anyway. Of cos, i have to admit tt i am really appreaciate the comments from u all yah. Thankz

Next week is the NAFA IPPT test already, got to practice more and improve on my physical conditions liao. hmmmm =(

MISS the chikcen cultet at the CAFE CARTEl... SLURPZ =) hee hee...

If my path has been smooth, I would not have learnt as much. Once i thought my path had ended. Now i see it's just a begining.

或许是生活压力大，工作太忙碌，总之我们有太多借口让自己天天愁眉苦脸，而很多时候不经意也将这些不愉快传染给身边的人。最糟的是，往往是最靠近自己身边的人受自己的气越深。因为我们常常理所当然认为最亲密的朋友，因该对自己最宽容，所以任意生气。

sometimes it feels no one understands

i don't even know why i do the things i do

when pride builds me up till i can't see my soul

will you break down these walls and pull me through

when satan mocks and friends turn to foes

it feel like everything is out to make me lose control

cause it's a long long journey

till i find my way home to you

-very tired ler.

all we did, was not to give up.

LEXICON

Alamak : Expression of surprise, annoyance or incredulity

Buay tahan : Cannot be endured

Buy home : Takeaway

Chin chye : Slipshod, easy going

Half-past-six : Slipshod

Hoot : Beat

Makan : Eat

Obiang : Excruciatingly tasteless

Paiseh : Shy

Sar bo : Sabotage

Shiok : Inexpressibly delivious or enjoyable

Susah : Difficult

Ta pau : Takeaway

Wayang : Drama, to put on an emotional display

On March 23, 1994....... the medical examiner viewed the body of Ronald Opus, and concluded that he died from a shotgun wound to the head. Mr.Opus had jumped from the top of a ten-story building intending to commit suicide..

He left a note to the effect indicating his despondency. As he fell past the ninth floor, his life was interrupted by a shotgun blast passing through a window, which killed him instantly.

Neither the shooter nor the deceased was aware that a safety net had been installed just below the eighth floor level to protect some building workers and that Ronald Opus would not have been able to complete his suicide the way he had planned.

"Ordinarily," Dr Mills continued, "Someone who sets out to commit suicide and ultimately succeeds, even though the chanism might not be what he intended, is still defined as committing suicide." That Mr.Opus was shot on the way to certain death, but probably would not have been successful because of the safety net, caused the medical examiner to feel that he had a homicide on his hands.

The room on the ninth floor, where the shotgun blast emanated, was occupied by an elderly man and his wife. They were arguing vigorously, and he wasthreatening her with a shotgun!

The man was so upset that when he pulled the trigger, he completely missed his wife, and the pellets went through the window, striking Mr. Opus.When one intends to kill subject"A" but kills subject "B" in the attempt, one is guilty of the murder ofsubject "B."

When confronted with the murder charge, the old man and his wife were both adamant, and both said that they thought the shotgun was not loaded. The old man said it was a long-standing habit to threaten his wife with the unloaded shotgun. He had no intention to murder her. Therefore the killing of Mr. Opus appeared to be an accident; that is, assuming the gun had beenaccidentally loaded.

The continuing investigation turned up a witness who saw the old couple's son loading the shotgun about six weeks prior to the fatal accident..

It transpired that the old lady had cut off her son's financial support and the son, knowing the propensity of his father to use the shotgun threateningly, loaded the gun with the expectation that his father wouldshoot his mother.

Since the loa der of the gun was aware of this, he was guilty of the murder even though he didn't actually pull the trigger. The case now becomes one of murder on the part of the son for the death of Ronald Opus.Now comes the exquisite twist...

Further investigation revealed that the son was, in fact, Ronald Opus. He had become increasingly despondent over the failure of his attempt to engineer his mother's murder. This led him to jump off the ten-story building on March 23rd, only to be killed by ashotgun blast passing through the ninth story window.

The son, Ronald Opus, had actually murdered himself. So the medical examiner closed the case as a suicide.

A true story from Associated Press, (Reported by Kurt Westervelt)

hahhha, this post is in chiense, so i think zhao yi will complain again bah =P paiseh lah..

儿时，小男孩家很穷，吃饭时，饭常常不够吃，母亲就把自己碗里的饭分给孩子吃。母亲说，孩子们，快吃吧，我不饿！——母亲撒的第一个谎。

男孩长身体的时候，勤劳的母亲常用周日休息时间去县郊农村河沟里捞些鱼来给孩子们补钙。鱼很好吃，鱼汤也很鲜。孩子们吃鱼的时候，母亲就在一旁啃鱼骨头，用舌头舔鱼骨头上的肉渍。男孩心疼，就把自己碗里的鱼夹到母亲碗里，请母亲吃鱼。母亲不吃，母亲又用筷子把鱼夹回男孩的碗里。母亲说，孩子，快吃吧，我不爱吃鱼！——母亲撒的第二个谎。

上初中了，为了缴够男孩和哥姐的学费，当缝纫工的母亲就去居委会领些火柴盒拿回家来，晚上糊了挣点分分钱补点家用。有个冬天，男孩半夜醒来，看到母亲还躬着身子在油灯下糊火柴盒。男孩说，母亲，睡了吧，明早您还要上班呢。母亲笑笑，说，孩子，快睡吧，我不困！——母亲撒的第三个谎。

高考那年，母亲请了假天天站在考点门口为参加高考的男孩助阵。时逢盛夏，烈日当头，固执的母亲在烈日下一站就是几个小时。考试结束的铃声响了，母亲迎上去递过一杯用罐头瓶泡好的浓茶叮嘱孩子喝了，茶亦浓，情更浓。望着母亲干裂的嘴唇和满头的汗珠，男孩将手中的罐头瓶反递过去请母亲喝。母亲说，孩子，快喝吧，我不渴！——母亲撒的第四个谎。

父亲病逝之后，母亲又当爹又当娘，*着自己在缝纫社里那点微薄收入含辛茹苦拉扯着几个孩子，供他们念书，日子过得苦不堪言。胡同路口电线杆下修表的李叔叔知道后，大事小事就找岔过来打个帮手，搬搬煤，挑挑水，送些钱粮来帮补男孩的家里。人非草木，孰能无情。左邻右舍对此看在眼里，记在心里，都劝母亲再嫁，何必苦了自己。然而母亲多年来却守身如玉，始终不嫁，别人再劝，母亲也断然不听，母亲说，我不爱！——母亲撒的第五个谎。

男孩和她的哥姐大学毕业参加工作后，下了岗的母亲就在附近农贸市场摆了个小摊维持生活。身在外地工作的孩子们知道后就常常寄钱回来补贴母亲，母亲坚决不要，并将钱退了回去。母亲说，我有钱！——母亲撒的第六个谎。

男孩留校任教两年，后又考取了美国一所名牌大学的博士生，毕业后留在美国一家科研机构工作，待遇相当丰厚，条件好了，身在异国的男孩想把母亲接来享享清福却被老人回绝了。母亲说，我不习惯！——母亲撒的第七个谎。

晚年，母亲患了胃癌，住进了医院，远在大西洋彼岸的男孩乘飞机赶回来时，术后的母亲已是奄奄一息了。母亲老了，望着被病魔折磨得死去活来的母亲，男孩悲痛欲绝，潸然泪下。母亲却说，孩子，别哭，我不疼。——母亲撒的第八个谎。

I'm sure everyone knows about the recent NKF scandal that rages everyone. I was quite disappointed at NKF myself. I mean, even though I know they are not exactly that ideally charitable (since I worked there for the internship), I didn't know that they are so horribly non-charitable!

I just read somewhere that only a miserable 55% of the fund they receive goes to the patients. The rest goes to the operational costs, including the CEO's huge salary! This is laughable compared to the 95% of the American Kidney Fund (AKF) which has similar revenues as the NKF!

He's very arrogant for one and he sure is cunning! He will use different sorts of cunning ways to sack staffs that he no longer want to keep! He conducts "training sessions" every monday and saturday and through these sessions, he will teach staffs how to use ways and methods to make people part with their money! All the staff have to attend his training and I even remember one incident when he gave an account of how he made the CEO of BelAir to donate a huge sum of money to them. He was damn proud of his cunning method and encouraged everyone to learn from him! NKF also has these medic vans that are suppose to transport the patients.

BUT

As a GP student, we must balance our view points. There is something made me feel more disgusted.

Read from the newspaper, there was one guy (uncle), chiong to the NKF building to ask for his refunds for the two charity calls that he has made (1900-112-6868), $12, once he heard the NKF incident. He annoyed me, not because he calimed his money back; he annoyed me, because he only make ONE call, not TWO call. what's the difference between HE and the NKF's CEO then? since both parties are "cheating" money for their own good. diaoz~ (chen huo da jie)

Exhausted...

My mind is empty so does my soul now...

Breath...

I need a space...

Ponder...

I am lost....

Oh well, my GP failed by 0.5 mark, and then my Econ failed by 2 marks. Forget about the Math, since it was horrendous. I am not going to beg for any mark, is not so much about the dignity that I have.. Is just tt... I really got to work for my marks, I rather earn it by my own efforts then beg for it.



PS. I am wondering who is XY also, hmmmm, any idea ?

HOTEL RWANDAN


The Rwandan genocide was the organized muder of up to one million Rwandans in 1994. It is commonly protrated as an eruption of ethnic conflict in which milies of the Hutu ethnic majority, with the connicance ofthe Hutu dominated goverment, attempted to carry out an ethnic cleasnsing of the minority Tutsis, and of Hutu modeates who opposed the genocide. Despite warnings before and intellgience during the genocide about the scale of the violence, the UN declined to take postive acitons. The Failure to act became the focus of bitter recrmination towards the policymaker of the UN, the France and USA.

The genocide ended when a Tutsi Rwandese Patriotic Army The Rwandese Patriotic Front (sometimes referred to as the Rwandan Patriotic Front, abbreviated as RPF) is the current ruling political party of Rwanda, led by President Paul Kagame. It governs in a coalition with other parties.The RPF was founded in 1985 in Uganda. Tutsi refugees from Rwanda had helped overthrow the dictatorship of Milton Obote, but locals resented the presence of the Tutsis in the new Ugandan army.

最初的夢想(韩剧大长今片头曲)(新歌)
作词：姚若龙 作曲：中岛美雪

如果驕傲沒被現實大海冷冷拍響
又怎會懂得要多努力才走得到遠方
如果夢想不曾墜落懸崖前據一方
又怎會曉得執著的人也有隱形翅膀
把眼淚種在心上　
會開出勇敢的花
可以在疲憊的時光　
閉上眼睛聞到一種芬芳
就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮
有人邊走著邊哼著歌用輕快的步伐
沮喪時總會明顯感到孤獨的重量
多渴望懂得的人給些溫暖借個肩膀
很放心一路上我們的默契那麼長
穿過風　又繞個彎　
心還戀著像往常一樣
最初的夢想緊握在手上　
最想要去的地方
怎麼能在半路就返航
最初的夢想絕對會到達
實現了整個渴望
才能夠算到過了天堂
Repeat Once
最初的夢想絕對會到達　
實現了整個渴望
才能夠算到過了天堂

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. Duringsome point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE."

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE."

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now you write on a stone. Why?" The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

The higher the stakes, the higher the rewards, the hihger the level you situate at. I have always had that. i think that's the mental part of the challenge. I love to hear people say they doubt me. That's something that has always driven me. You tell me I can't do something, and that's what I am goign to try to do.


LET'S WAIT AND SEE....

单身是领悟

恋爱是失误

分手是觉悟

结婚是错误

离婚是醒悟

在婚是执迷不悟

没有情人是废物

情人多了是动物

was chatting to yang while walking on the street just now.

then we talked abt the racist stuffs.

he said tt : "I am not a racist..... BUT i just hate Indians"

>_<"

I burst out into luagher non-stop for nearly 5 mins

Anyway currently he is working for a boss who happens to be an Indians.

and it also happens tt his indians boss is very slow and reluncatnt in giving payment to him.

so oh well... lolx.. good luck to both of them =P

hahhhha, and anybody out there can teach me how to use Pisaca to upload pictures into my blog? heee..

《游牧民族》

遊牧民族 作曲:林一峰 填詞:阿管 編曲:屠穎 監製:馬毓芬


我忘記了當時有沒有被祝福

許多事情都已經模糊

如果愛你真的是我一時的糊塗

我寧願這輩子都糊塗

你把當時的世界記得很清楚

我們都有同樣的感觸

無人知道我們能走到什麼地步

幸福還是一個未知數

我不在乎 你也許是一個遊牧民族

還不知道會在哪裡停住

我不害怕世界比想像中孤獨

我不在乎 就算夢想可能會被耽誤

至少我的心一直有溫度

我知道我就住在你靈魂深處

我很清楚 我忘記了當時有沒有被祝福

許多事情都已經模糊

如果愛你真的是我一時的糊塗

我寧願這輩子都糊塗

你把當時的世界記得很清楚

我們都有同樣的感觸

無人知道我們能走到什麼地步

幸福還是一個未知數

我不在乎 你也許是一個遊牧民族

還不知道會在哪裡停住

我不害怕世界比想像中孤獨

我不在乎 就算夢想可能會被耽誤

至少我心一直有溫度

我知道我就住在你靈魂深處

我很清楚

我不在乎 你也許是一個遊牧民族

還不知道會在哪裡停住

我不害怕世界比想像中孤獨

我不在乎 就算夢想可能會被耽誤

至少我的心一直有溫度

我很清楚

was reading some books during the holiday, and there are few sentences that i think i should share with all of u guys = )

我总认为谈恋爱应该是舍不得离开对方太久，就算不得已，也会每天和对方联系至少一通电话，至少说句我想你吧。就连想念，也该是想到会发疼的那种。

舍得，是一种很高的境界，尤其是在爱情世界里。人生最痛苦的事，莫过于面临抉择，在舍得之前必定经过一段挣扎。许多人拥有选择的权利，却没有抉择的勇气。

很多人都以为我们已经拥抱了，但只有自己才知道，我们很靠近，但始终有距离。一个指尖的距离，很靠近，但又那么遥远。

一個吻，不需要糾纏交葛，輕輕柔柔地，也可以很深情。一份關心，不需要長篇大論，短短的一句，也可以很溫暖。

一個知已，不需要每日見面，心和心的維繫，也可以很長久。一對戀人，不需要每天浪漫，手牽著手，也可以感受到愛。

表達，是一種哲學，也是...一種美......

我抽烟，喝酒，像只狗般大量性交，但是我是相信爱情童话故事的。

erm.. currently down with flu...
but i still went for Tagawa training just now..
tired... body aching now... play so badly man =(

Mood was not good these days..
i dunnoe is due to the exam stress..
or i am getting paranoid..

A piece of simple, innocent tissue paper
can actually make me... er... feel upset...

maybe it was not the tissue paper..
but someone who hold tt tissue paper...
SIGH =*

HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a women, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

LONGEVITY

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man hoping he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman hoping that she won't change, and she does.

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

A woma has the last word in any arguemnt.
Anything a man says after that is the beginnning of a new argument.

the trouble with love is

that i can never tell you exactly why i am sad
that i always see things i don't want to see
that i always ask for too much
that i can never understand the way u chose to do your things

the trouble with love is

that i dun want to be mad over little things
that i think i shouldn't be mad but still find myself speechless
that i have expectations but i hate to wait

the trouble with love is

that if u care u would...
that its so easy to make me happy but u never try


the trouble with love is

love itself.


BUT

of cos i am LOVING u (".)

Mother knows that eating vegetable is good for the development of a kid. So mother decided to let the kid eats a serving of vegetable per day. No kids like to eat vegetable, so does this one. Kid gets uneasy with mother's idea, but he follows the mother's words. Few months later, kid started to feel sick and tired of the vegetables, so he started to rebel and retaliate. Mother got a set back, was she wrong in the first place to let the kid eats the vegetable? Eat the things that kid doesn't like? Will the kid feel the love from her more, if she doesn't set a rule to force the kid eat a serving of vegetable per day?

You mean I waited the whole day for your call just hear that you're too tired and sleepy and you dun have the mood to speak to me?

Aren't you interested to tell me what happened to you today? What have you seen and what have you heard or what have you read? Are you happy today?

I want a conversation with you. Not a Q n A session. I ask, you answered. FULL STOP.

Did you know that I am so eager to hear what you did today? What conversation did you and your friend had? Did you laugh at anything today? Or did you come across a new place for us to spend time there?

I know you are not a phone person. Talking on the phone isn't a cup of your tea. But I tried, it just makes me unhappy when u keep quiet and I am the one who keep talking like a parrot. I am just like a young and ambitious teacher, who tried very hard to get the class going, but none of my students are willing to response.

Interaction is two ways. I throw the ball to you, you catch it, and then throw it back.

I know is hard on you, being so compromising and giving in. I will be cutting it short, as short as possible if we really have nothing to say. I am not angry, I am just pening down my tots and some how deep inside my heart, i do hope tt u will see this post, and know what i feel.

eh hum... dunnoe who once said want to read bed time story to me ah? eh hum hum... (coughing)

Your Birthdate: January 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense. Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise. You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease. You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them. A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

S-C-A-N-D-A-L-O-U-S

Ok, went down for my routine swim ( or rather pao4 shui3) this late morning, cos the wheater was DAMN hot. Then there was this young boy (between 11-13yrs old), super tanned and duper chubby appeared in the pool after i swam for half an hour. This ah pui2 (fat guy) keep looking at me when he was in the pool, it was so ovious tt he was looking at me to the extent tt i inevitably notice his existence. So i decided to came out from the pool and went home. The story does not end here. To my surprise (horror), he followed me to my block. I was kinda agitated by his behaviour, so i decided to play along with him (ah pui). When the lifts came, the ah pui went in, he tot i would enter too. But, i choose to turn away and walked out the lift and went to the lobby area to get my letters (pretend paretend =P). Hahhhha, then this ah pui was abit stunned tt i didn't enter the lift. Then, he walked out the lift too (oh my God!) So, after i walked around the lobby, the ah pui was still infront of the lifts, perhaps waiting for me ? OK, so i relunctanly took the same lift as him, and the most interesting thing was, he entered the lift few seconds ahead of me, and he didn't press the floor buttons. OK, so i pressed mine (6F) and he stood there think for a while and then pressed 13F. When the lift reached mine floor, i walked out of the lift and purposely stood there and see what is he going to do. Expectedly, when the lift was going to close, he stopped it for three times and pop his head out to see where am i going (or rather want to know which unit do i live in). To his horror, i was standing there and staring him back directly outside the lift. Hahahhhha, he quickly looked away and closed the door and went up to 13F (which i don't think he is living there). Hmmm.... interesting kena-talked experience, but scandalous indeed.

简单的爱情方程式

边走边爱，这或许就是人为了寻找爱的过程。每个人的一生都试图要找着这四个人。

第一个是自己、第二个是最爱的人、第三个是最爱你的人、第四个是与你共度一生的人。

初认识自己的人，将先会遇见那个自己最爱的人，从而体会到爱的感觉。就因为渐渐了解爱的感觉，所以才能发觉出最爱你的人。只有在当你经历爱人与被爱之后，才学会了爱并明白什么是自己所需要的。然后找到那最适合你的那个人，一起相处这辈子。

“众里寻他千百度，默然回首，那人竟已在灯火栏杆处。”

也许你会刻意的去寻找一段自己满意的爱情，但毕竟有事与人违之时。特意的举动所带出的并不一定是好的结果。何不放慢规律的脚步，细细观察周围。往往在自己身边，默默照顾着自己的人或许才是你一直在寻找的那个人。

“携子之手与子偕老。”

夜幕低垂，幽暗的街景不必以绚丽的霓虹灯作点缀。对有你陪伴在左右的我来说，昼夜已没任何区别。而在握住你手的那一刻，彼此默默对望时的会心一笑，时间仿佛停止了。。。

爱你 + 爱我 = FOREVER

A piece of cake. Say that you and a mathematician want to split a single piece of cake. You each want a fair share, so you agree that the mathematician will slice the cake and you will choose the half you want. The mathematician cuts it down the middle and you take the piece that you think is slightly larger. Now the mathematician feels like he has gotten an equal portion -- he cut it in half, remember -- and, because you were given a choice, you believe that you have gotten slightly more than he got. Miraculously, the two halves will seem to add up to more than a whole

ok fine, today i reached home at six ? and what is surprising is tt today is TUESDAY.. which means supposedly i should reach home by 10pm+ since i would be having training at this time... but well.. the tournament has jus concluded.. and it means tt NO BASKETABLL TRAINING and is TIME TO STUDY.. grrr...

Fine, basically i dun think i will touch my book this week.. hopefully next week i should chinog for my JCT aka june common test... june? not teck's tt gf lah... hahhha.. is may June july tt June... grinz =)

Basically, life is sucks... really.. i dunnoe why... just feel like losing a balance in my life...is like i am slunted to oneside.. which defineitely is not my studies.. and i am getting more emotional than usual.. is like i can't fa xir4 thru bball alredy... haiz... maybe i should look for another sport.. perhaps badminton or tennis ? then i can vent my anger thru it.... oh well...

Thank Xinyan for ur comment.. u r the first one... hahhha... well well... thankz yah =)

Today is not a good day for me, i am getting really upset abt somebody due to somewords tt he said... well, basicall, i am worrying the same thing tt he worries too. I know tt thing is impt to him, but i am just simply get pissed off cos he got angry with something tt we human cnanot control at all... well called me petty if u guys want.. but i am just think tt i am the one who get all the things blamed on... haiz

Getting sleepless at the sleepless night.... wan an everyone .. night

getting lazier to blog... not lazy.. but just somehow feel uncomfortable..
anyway.. not much ppl care abt my blog lah.. no body leave a single comment here....
gerrrr.... the weather is so sucky now.. humid and stuffy.. make me so restless now =(

went to IKEA this mornining.. its fun! v v fun.. it was my first time shopping in IKEA...
i was so STUNNED by the SHOPPING STYLE in IKEA... hahhha... eventot the yellow bags are abit sucky lah.. but who cares =) heee.. had a great time there.. giggling around... sitting and testing each and every rocking chairs...i just realised the so-called "queen size" bed is SOOOOOO small man... sure cannot fit me in de lah....then we are contemplating to buy a lamp? a stylish "table light".. but we couldn't choose between a rectangular and a circualr one.. so we end up buying nothing there... hahhhha...had lunch at IKEA..it was so crowded and we waited for like 30 mins? Hmmmph... we had the meatballs and the salmon.. the salmon is so "ok-ok", the meatballs are better...

After tt went to Queensway shopping centre to look look see see ah.. changed my watch's battery there also.. at least i got a watch that can function properly now... hahhhha.. didn't buy anything at here also.. took bus down to orchard.. walked to Kinokuniya... spend lots of time finding books... and contemplayting which books to buy... YAWNS.... legs pain yia... hahhhha...

5 plus... took bus home.. and kuan... hahhha, i am in such a HOLIDAY mood alredy... grrr...
haiz.. but still got tests for the next two days.. what the... bleah =P

Oh ya, suddenly i have NO interest in Sports carnival.. for tt three days, i just freaking wanna sleep and study... Study in the sense of.. doing the works tt i should have done long ago =P

20-05-2005
I will never gorget abt this day in my life = )
BUT
i look so freaking ugly in the next day "The straits time"
hahhhha.... sobs

WHAT THE..... (nameless post)

To Mr C
I get very irritated by you. Not for today only, but for a period of time.
I am trying to control my anger, without letting it explode like a bomb, an atomic bomb.

To Mr H
You, you are really hopeless. Such a no-sense bastard.
Ha, i wonder why u r here in the team, u think u r very good ? lolx... carrying on ur joke.

To Mr U
I think i have got enough of u, u should disappear from the earth.
This world has already been polluted.

To Mr N
Dun give urself anymore excuses. U r lousy, and u have to admit tt.
Dun pretend u r working hard, u r just escaping from the reality.

To Mr H
Another failer. Such a useless jerk. Besides copying ur tests and tutorials. What more do u know? Go eat shit lah.. dun pretend u have done ur tutorial in front of my eyes.. so hyprocratic.

To Mr S
Why have u always give in to ppl? are u trying to be generous and angelic? ha, dream on..
dun act le lah... u r so fake.. do what u want to do, and say what u like to say. Be strong, dun be so coward-like.

To Mr I
Do u think u r very 'respectable", hahha... who care abt u ? pls...
such a disgusting freak... u got no friend..

To Mr E
Everyone say u are doing better.. i think.. they are just bluffing... or they are blind.

To Mr N
No comments... just fuck off... i hate you

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Your Top Ten Traits

1. Stylish
2. Shy
3. Big-Hearted
4. Athletic
5. Funny
6. Romantic
7. Liberal
8. Traditional
9. Religious
10. Practical

well, i dun think i am stylish =X

Most things funny have sociological undertones or societal undercurrents flowing thru it anyway :-)_______________________________________________________________________________Dear Dear Mummy,I am feeling very sad.

Today in school, Zhong Guoren - my classmate from China - beat me again, in a Maths test. That boy is an unstoppable genius machine.

Last week, he beat me in sports too.

If he were not here, I would have come in first and gotten a gold.But because the Government says we must welcome foreign talents to increase our population and to improve our economy, I got a bronze instead.

This sucks.

At first, we laughed at them, because their English was not very good. Their maths and science were good, and their Chinese was excellent (but who cares about Chinese language, right?). But then, their Englishgot better and now, they are kicking our backsides in this subject too.

I think we should get the Government to do something about this.

Why didn't you have more babies, Mummy? I wouldn't mind having a brother or a sister to play with. I am an only child, and bec ause you and Daddy are not making enough babies, we have to get people from othercountries, people who make it hard for me to be number one in my class.

I think you are very selfish to just have me, Mummy.

I don't like to lose, Mummy. I am used to being first in my class.And my school was very small too, like Singapore, so it was easy to be first. Now my school is bigger, and I have to fight harder to be first.Why can't we just compete with ourselves, among Singaporeans only(okay, and maybe Permanent Residents)?

Why can't they have a new category for all the tests and CCAs?We could have a Best Local Maths Student category and a Best Local Sportsman category, then at least, if I don't win Best MathsStudent, I can be Best Local Maths Student and feel better about myself.

Just like my school is ranked one of the Top 20 Value-added Secondary Schools with a Special Assessment Award for Knitting CCA, I also want to be a top student.

Maybe we need to have a new category like "Top 20 Value-addedSecondary Schools (Got China Students)".

This is because our school has smart foreign students and should be ranked separately so that schools without smart foreign students won't feel so jealous. And, maybe, we should drop Literature as a subject too. I hate Literature, hard to score "A"s.In fact, we should have streams like EM1 (Local) and EM1 (China and Others). Let the smart China students have their own stream.

I want to go to university when I grow up, especially the National University of Singapore (NUS), because our newspapers say that NUS is even better than Princeton and Cornell in the United States.

But I hear there are many brilliant China students in NUS, too.I don't want to be having private tuition until I am 25 years old, just to keep up with my foreign classmates in the Uni. Or else, I will have no time to meet girls and then I will be forced to go to Vietnam or Kelantan to find a wife when I want to start a family.

In fact, I am very upset with foreigners competing with us even in this area.All the girls I know say that when they finish studying and go to work, they want to marry ang mohs, because Singapore men are unromantic and do not want to know how to make a girl happy. So, the ang mohs are even stealing our women.

I prefer to marry a Singapore girl, of course, but only if she knows how to cook and wash, and peel my prawns for me (like you, Mummy).But nowadays, Singapore girls are so fierce, just because they study, and earn their own money.

Maybe that is why in Chinatown, I saw this big Singapore Rooster, and it was sitting on eggs. I think the Singapore Hen left him to look after the eggs, because she had to work and do all the things an educated Hen does. (Kumar in our D&D pointed out about the rooster on eggs @ Chinatown CNY05.....rooster lay eggs?? ..now U know why)I also worry I cannot find a job when I am older.

My friend, Ah Hock,tells me his mother feels all these Chinese foreigners are stealing our jobs and our men (and the ang mohs are stealing our women).

That is very scary, Mummy. You told me many China women are in Singapore only to do naughty things, like relieve old men of their Central Provident Fund money.

Once an uncle wrote in the papers that we should catch those foreign women who are tall, have long hair and legs, and wear tight, revealing outfits in black or red and behave coquettishly.

I think we should only accept foreign women who are short, have short hair and legs, and wear loose, covered-up outfits in white or blue, and behave like a man.

Okay, Mummy, I have to go to my Chinese, Maths and Science tuition classes now. If I don't go, I won't be able to beat Guoren.

Your son,

Khia Soo

The more you try to suppress the feeling, the great sense of disappointment you'll feel. If you know its not going to worth the effort, then re-track your steps before you even sink in deep. Otherwise, if it's worthy of the wait then stick by your judgment and go for it! =) Tell yourself at the end of the day that at least you've tried. Whether or not things happen doesn't depend on you and you alone. So yah, don't always let look down at yourself. It's time to secure the service back into you court again ;D

Friends who make friend wait are not friends...
Friends who are wrong and deny it are not friends...
Friends who love talking rubbish are not friends...
Friends who love seeking attention are not friends...
Friends who are trying to make themselves sound very poor thing are not friends...

The one the world stood still
Thousands of people live in this town
And I had to run into you
When I saw you there on that busy street
Those feelings came back again
There was nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
You walked up to me, looked in my eyes

And still
The world stood still
I couldn't move
And all I could feel
Was this aching in my heart
Saying I loved you still

You said how've you been
It's great to see you again
You're really a sight for sore eyes
I said, I can't complain
I'm doing fine
We talked as the people rushed by
We laughed about old times and all we went through
That's when you hugged me and said I've missed you

And still
The world stood still
I couldn't move
And all I could feel
Was this aching in my heart
Saying I loved you still

And still
The world stood still
I couldn't move
And all I could feel
Was this aching in my heart
Saying I loved you still

you know out there, you know what you have done, you know you are being hated.

you are a contemptuous fucked up *******.

so please go away. far far away. go live back your lonesome life, loser.

your actions qualify you of a bastard.

i've since dropped any evil intentions of ruining you; if not at least to disrupt your life.

you are not worth wasting time on, my moral soundness is being insulted.

you suck big time. go fuck away and die.

feel so much better now.

effortlessly.

i've put all unhappiness behind me.

no one can hurt me, come defeat me.

i'm not scared of you.

Some day you came,

and I knew you were the one.

You were the rain,

you were the sun.

But I needed both

cause I needed you.

You were the one,

I was dreaming of all my life.

When it is dark,

you are my light.

But don't forget who's always our guide...

It is the child in us.

我爱你，你爱我

简单的六个字形成了-我们

在这辽阔的世界

牵着彼此的手

天与地的距离，

仿佛成为了一线

将我们融为一体

此时的你属于我

而我就是你

似乎是很久以前了

我们对着生活

报着热忱

去微笑

去等待长大

觉得凡事都是美好的

就像雨过天晴般

但曾几何时

我们经历了不少事

遇见了不少人

到最后

已弄不清是时间改变了我们

还是我们改变了对生活的态度

日复一日中

我们学会用尖锐的言语去武装自己

用怀疑的眼光去询问所有的人和事

我们不再轻易地相信

不相信别人诚心的赞赏

不相信他们善意的忠告

不再为小小的获得

而满足和快乐

我们的目光中

多了审视与窥探

少了一些坦诚与信任

我们的心不时地有了疲倦的感觉

长大了

我们究竟失去了什麽

This is a diary of impromptu thots.

About Love

Will you keep changing for someone till you lose yourself, lose your own identity ?

I dun want you to change, at least not so much for me. It hurts still, but as long as u r happy, i guess i will try to accept that.

I grow more attached to u as the day passed by, but i will try not to let u feel tied down.

How are u going to overcome the problem of age gap? Be mature ? or be childish ?

Relationship is not about I love you and you love me and things will work out... There is alot of effort to be put in, care plays a big role.

Do u think that love will just fade away over time ? I dun... = )

About Basketball

Sigh, really a big big SIGH.. now we are facing a "traisition" period, it sucks to the core!

Some players played to death, some players played a little and the rest didn't get to play at all !

I am not a talented player, I am not a good basketball palyer, I just worked extra hard on it.

But u made me lost the motivation to drive harder.... to achive better..

i am tired, i have been drained out by u.. both physically and mentally...

Where is the fun of playing basketball, if i have a coach like u...

orh, sorry, in the first place, u are just a teacher, not a coach... at least not qualified....

About School

I have not touched my hw for the whole week.

I attened all lectures and tutorials, but basically i learnt nothing.

No test means i no need to study. Ridiculous... wake up! wake up!

One of my classmate is leaving, she wants to study in NYP, i wish her the best.

One of my classmate is being quite cold towards me, i feel uneasy.

One of my classmate is pissing me off, oh sorry, she pissed me off, and she will piss me off MORE.

One of my classmate... one of my classmate... one of my classmate...

Do i have a class? weird, where is the class bonding... i wonder... i failed... i am not being respect

About Family

I feel lost... I feel worried... I am just 18.

I behaved like a man.

I cried like a boy.

I feel tt i have not done enough.. in taking care and concerning about him...

I should spend more time w you.

I may not be able to let you be proud of me, but i am proud of u as always.

Love.

Meaningful Quotes on Relationships

If you don't listen to yourself, it's unlikely that anyone else will.

When to talk: Not when your partner needs some space or time to be alone.

What we can't tolerate in others is what we can't tolerate in ourselves.

The simple failure to acknowledge what the other person says explains much of the friction in our lives.

When feelings of not being understood come out as anger, hearing them, not shutting your ears or fighting back, is the key to calming things down.

Don't tell angry people to calm down. Doing so only makes them feel like you're denying their right to be upset.

Sharing problems makes people feel better. Listening is how we help them soothe themselves and how we build closer relationships.

Once you accept that the people who push your buttons are who they are, you can stop trying to change them - and stop overreacting when they do what they've always done.

Couples who learn to listen to each other - with understanding and tolerance - often find that they don't need to change each other.

The great challenge in courtship is to be together and still be yourself.

If you want truth from our partners, we must make it safe for them to tell it.

No one benefits when weaknesses or shortcomings become the principal focus of attention in a relationship.

Holding on to resentment of people you have work with punishes you as much as it does them.

You don't change relationships by trying to control other people's behaviour but by changing yourself in relation to them.

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y

Got some birthday wishings (sms) from :
Alvin
James
Rui Teck
Johnathan
John
Kah kit
Ricky
June
Zhao Yi
Feng
Yong Meng
Zi xin
Junior
Jin xuan
Weilun
Winsome
Guo hao
Dennis

Got the birthday cards from :
khim rong
zi rui
34/04

Got the birthday presents from :
Daddy and Mummy
Alvin
Rui Teck + Wei Jian + Marcus
Khim Rong
Guo hao
34/04

Angel Hsien birthday wish:
World peace (no war, no disaster)
Daddy get well
Do well in mid year exam and prelim
Do well in "A" level 2005 and get into one of the local University by 2006
Champion the 2005 A DIVISION BOY basketabll tournament
All my friends are doing well and in thier pink of health

Mortal Hsien birthday wish:
Get more sleep
Get more tanned
Get my body becomes more define
Pass my GP
Pass every subjects tests and exams
Be a good son, a good student, a good friend, a good teammate, and a good (boyfriend)?
Finished all my homework and catch up with my studies
Get a new handphone
Improve on my basketball
Skip less lectures
Settled my house toilet's problem
Save more money
Get a new pair of basketabll shoes
Get more holiday
Get more freedom
Get more healthy
Be more patient and kind towards ppl who i don't like
Be a nice and strong tree (hahhha, dun get it is ok de)

Devil Hsien birthday wish:
Get more birthday presents
More cash in my bank account
Get slim while eat more
All the tests/hw/exams are cancelled
All the teachers are forbitted to scold students (including me)
School OM get sacked
Mock and slap someones (hahhha... devil grinz)

doesn't it hurt
when you get unnoticed,
when your left out,
when you efforts are being neglected?

it sure does...
especiallyif you've done so much
for them
and not for yourself

but i am left alone
in my own world
doing what i do
feeling neglected

i am a giver
much less of a receiver
happiness is instilled
in my giving

i feel like a loner
I crap
I lame
but it is not myself

neglection hurts
especially when
you expect something
in return. . . . . .

Love is,
Bastion against instability.
Spice in a stagnant uneventful life.

basking in the throes of love,
one might mistake it for lustful passion.
but diving deeper into ur heart, recognize
It for wat it is.

Breathe.... for chances passes u by,
without a chance to thrive.
it is up for grabs,
provided u r willing to.
Received mine, and cherish it i will