W A R N I N G ! ! !

(Dun eat too much when u r reading this post, just in case if u want to puke)

I know the post below will make some of u puke or whatever... u may condemned me for what i posted down here... actually i also dunnoe what had happened to this world.. hahhha...


16/12/2004
6:50pm
The Bus stop outside Plaza Sing
a guy appraoched me... tot he was selling insurance or asked me to donate money to blah blah charity..didn't give him a damn at first...
until i recived his name card....
VersusOne Management....
http://www.versusone.com (check it out if u guys are interested)

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Is not so SHOCKING... until i read the words behind.....

Models & Artistes management company

I was like totally STUNNED.... and can't control myself from laughing at it.....
hahhhha....me? model? hahha... tsk tsk tsk ... was he mad or what ?


Anyway this guy was quite sincere, and he wrote an e-mail to me the next day, which is today lah..the content is below as follows:

..............

Hi Jonathan,

As mentioned, I need a few good guys to pose as Butlers for American Express. The project started in September this year, and will be continuing till next year. Therefore, I constantly need guys to be at the Amex Platinum Card Events.

My current batch of Butlers are still in force, but some of them have new commitments (e,g. f new full time job, school etc)

Let me know you schedule, e.g. which days free/ at wat time free etc...

In addition, there will be future opportunity to do modellling for events, and advertisements etc.

If you're keen, send me 3-4 of your pictures. I need to know your height annd contact details too.

Once I have your pictures, I will recommend you to clients for suitable assignments.

Let me know if this is something that you will like to explore.

Best Regards,
Ryan

...............


well, anyone wanna give me any comments?
i swear, i ddint't make up any line above...
i am not trying to show off, cos i got nothign to show off what....
just for a laugh here.. no need to puke infront of ur com k =)
anyway.. i am CONTENTED =D

I dreAm

People do dream. i dream too. i dreamt of being somebody yet i do enjoy being myself. In my life, i don't need to be anybody. i need to be myself. i don't need to be rich and famous. i don't need to be a superstar.

I dream
In my mind
I can climb All the mountains that surround me
My spirit’s there,
where eagles dare to fly
In my heart
There’s a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are

It doesn’t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can run Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream

If there’s a timeI
n your life
When the odds are so against you
There’s no defeat, if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There’s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when world’s have come apart

It doesn’t matter rich or poor
Or the things you’ve done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can runLike the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in

I dream
I can beThe hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream
I dream Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

And I dream
I can runLike the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream I can be
The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream

Afraid



in the lonely night,

i will still think of you.

un-notically,

i will take note of you.

when love become stagnant,

the last resort is seperation.

i will continue living.

but i am still afraid,

when i am alone,

i will remind myself of you.

regrettably,

i wish i didn't make a decision when it is time to leave.

cause i am still afraid...

Sometimes life is like drinking a cup of coffee without sugar. After overcoming the bitterness, you'll taste a tinge of sweetness within. Although it's only a bit of sweetness, it's like victory after a long and hard war, ever so satisfying.

Being busy lately, usually ppl who didn't blog for a long time had two reasons:
1. They are in loved
2. They are busy in loved

.... but... i didn't blog for a long time was because of Project Work (PW)... pw pw pw pw pw pw...

yar, our group is fantastic man (TJ 164), was being so united and hardworking for the past few days, the project work file of our was being organized so needly by jane until an extent tt everyone would give a "WOW!" when they saw our file.. *so poud of our group*
then we were practicing our Oral Presentation (OP) for countless of time until i can do it without cue cards =)

anyway i have a hard time when i was trying to pronounce these two simple words
"consume" and "work" >_<"

received these two mails from Pamela and Ms ng respectively, thankz =) *touched*

hey jun xian!are u very surprised to receive my mail? this is pamela incase udunno.. yeah tt moron who was damn impressed by your cards (duno wadto call them).. juz wanna thank you for being such a great cg rep for this year! hopeu can be our cg rep next year too.. been reading your blog (bet youdidnt know) and you seem to be really depressed and nan guo most ofthe time.. isit because of our class? maybe u feel very nan guo cos ofus? this bunch of 38 girls.. i have to admit we always tend to leave u and guohao out.. but i'msure it isnt done on purpose.. u noe guys and girls always have somesort of invisible barrier.. immature lar. yar.. so hope u wont bear agrudge against us? and dun always go and eat buns and fruits yourselfleh. can always eat with us wad. we look so unfriendly and bad meh? =Pblehh.. maybe we really look so...sigh so i just wanna let u know im sorry for being one of those guilty ofleaving u guys out.. in a unknowing way.. definitely not on purpose...forgive us! (or me, rather) again, i must reiterate the fact that im very very very impressed withyour sweet efforts in doing the little cards.. its something small butit means so much! (haha getting mushy here =S) yeah i really mean itlor. i mean, if i were you, i wldnt even be bothered to make it sonicely.. i will juz print the words and tts all lor. and i tell u,alot of ppl in 34 are impressed oso!! touched and impressed... likeglenda lar, wenyuan lar, eileen la, etc etc. in case u have any doubt of ur own abilities as a CG rep, here's toassure u YOU'RE A GREAT CG REP!! yeah.... do u feel damn shuang now?haha.. but of cos not as great a rep as me. the lep rep. ahha no juzjoking!! so pls dun be so sad sad and you1 yu4 liaoz ok. i noe got some ppl whogets on ur nerves lar.. but thats life. in case u think there's nobodyu can confide in in this cls, theres always me! i duno lar.. we dontreally talk in cls i noe.. cos im a very quiet n reserved person u see(yar rite).. but feel free to confide in me im a good listener u noe.yea..... cheer up!! thanks so much again!! im damn impressed! (u muz be damnsick of this) grinz and winks frm pamela =D

___________________________________________________________________

Dear 34, It's the end of the year and it's been a crazy mad rush with me and all therubbish that the end of term brings. Anyway, I'd like to say somethings to youguys and since we haven't really have had a chance to meet- the full class, Imean, this is the only way to do it. I know your results haven't been really fantastic and I've been giving you a lotof heat about it. Thing is it really was a shock. Your actual class ranking forGP dropped 17 notches from 19 to 36 so there you are. It's quite scary. Buthaving said that, I believe in you guys and I believe that you guys can actuallymake it, instead of "cannot make it". And I really believe that, despite thefact that I get annoyed with you and tell you guys off for being distracted andcomplacent. I'm not saying you guys are, all the time, sometimes yes, that much you have toadmit as well..:), but beneath all that, I've seen the ability in you toactually do well and I want you to, during the holidays, reach into yourselvesand actually pull that out again. It's time you took responsibility for yourresults, both good and bad and thought about it. So, spend the holidays well, rest but don't forget the big challenge that willbe next year. Next year's going to be tough and I promise you that we'll weatherthrough it together, but I need you guys to bring your own umbrellas as well- ifyou get what I mean-, I'll be there to help and to lead the way, but you do yourpart too. And, I also want to say thank you, for your messages and your little cards,thank you for the times you've put in effort. They have not gone unnoticed. Seeyou next year and if you need to get in touch with me during the holidays, youknow how. With a warm heart for everyone of you, Ms Ng

Fallen

forever i guess is a fictional word that makes fantasy complete. when you love someone, you will deny the truth and believe in the lies. time passes. life happens. distance separates. don't think that you know so much about me. i am not who i may seem to be. don't prick on me, don't push me, because i can't take it. i will re-bark hard if i want to, but seems that more often than not i just mellow and drown myself... immensely hurt within, broken and screaming for a voice. don't give me the option to drift and walk away entirely, because i would want to stay and be this way. the past is meant to be used as a tool for the future. bad experiences indeed made me bitter but the lessons learnt should make me better. i am happy to be who i am. love is living, making life better and treasuring myself. love is in my head, but freedom is my soul. i don't like to change and i won't change... i won't be broken again. i've got to breathe. I can't keep going under. it's just me.

Finding the true identity.....

To Jun Xian,

Jun xian, jun xian ah.. sometime i really pity you... when u r nicer to ppl... ppl think u r "IRRITATING"; when u dind't bother abt them at all... ppl say u r "acting dao"....

hahha... PROMO has fnished... i know u had did ur best, the results is not tt answer, cos what matter most is the process, the hardwork u had put in!

The loniness still filled with heart... sometime i doubt who is my true friend... the person closer to u can hurt u the most.. guess i am always stupid enough to make friends around, but actaully they just treating u as a piece of shit....hahhahha... stupid me!

Guess sometime i am too concern abt others le, always put them as my first priority, and end up losing out my soul..my identity.

Yesterday went to MPCC to play basketball... play four-four.. i was the youngest among the team.. cos the rest of them are all "ah-pek". hahhha... buy ya i am the weakest link among them lor... they were fierce, agrresive, competitive and ya... all sort of dirty tricks all came out.
pushing, elbowing, tricking ah... all the nonsense were there... and it seems like a battle field more than a basketball court lor... ^_^"

This morning went to Bedok sports hall paly badminton, it has been a long time that i play a badminton match.. hahhha.. got three pairs of uncles came and challenge us lei... hahhha.. uncle again... we lost two and won one... hahhahha... the most impt things is tt all the uncles said i played very good lor, very fast in response and the smashing is powerful also =D
hahaha... then i was like keep sliding here and there to save the "shuttle-cock" hahha...
now my butt pain like tearing apart and my right around basically cannot move around =X

Erm... so ppl out ther who dunnoe me tt well.... hahhha... NEVER NEVER underestimate my sports ability... never say I AM a nerd, cos it will cause a great insult only to urself.... hahhhha...
sounds abit arrogrant here... bleah =P

Miss all my old friends around.. especially GESS 4J 2002/2003.. hope they are doing fine...
and hope can meet up with them soon! Like to bitch around with them...hahhhha... and never froget the basketball team also... hahhha.. HEY, did coach owe us a trip to Genting? hahhhha....
Grinz

SomE ThOughts

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile,
grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear.

Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person
who can make you stop crying
is the person who made you cry?

If love isn't a game,
why are there so many players?
And guess i am lousy in game,
because i am the one who always lose.

STUDY + STUDY + STUDY ! ! !

The One That Got Away

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with... and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was flaw in the chemistry, but the timing just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready.It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person.

Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?"! That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "WHAT IF?" you'll have in your life. If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it.

Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens. Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different.

What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. U just might be his/her "one that got away"

Hi everyone....

wah.. it has been a long long time since i bloged last time... luckily i still manage to figure out my username and password for blogspot =)
life kinda terribly sucky these days... or ya... hahhahha... my life is really a MESS.... messy plus unorganised.... i din't blog for a long time, not bcos i have nothing to blog abt, is bcos i have TOO MUCH tt i wanted to say.. but i scare to offend anyone in my post... =X

hahha... being a lame and crappy man whenever i can in the sch, cos i jsut wanna bring laughers and cheers to the class... i have suffocated enough from the emptiness and unhappiness that my life brings to me... but i must go on... there is still a goal for me to achieve... PROMOTE exam...
I MUST PASS IT NO MATTER WHAT...

Class is being unorganised... haiz... i feel so sad and lousy as i am the CG rep... sigh =(
Currently i am utterly disgusted and irritated by someones' attitues and behaviour ... hahhha.... but ya... tt person is getting her own retribution now lah... woo hoo~~~ just hope tt u can read this post...ya... hahhha.... if unluckily, one day the whole singapore only left with one girl and that is you... (wah... super terribly sad case)... i will have two options : 1. be a monk or 2. be a gay (no offence to the monks and gays out there... sorry=X )

* i didn't say who is tt girl hor... hahhha... dun anyhow put anyone in this content =P

Kinda miss lots of ppl there.... GESS basketall teams, GESS class 4J, benjamine, nicholas, dennis, watson and blah blah blah..... haiz.... take care all... got to go back study le....

oh ya... i am single..... and did u call me "lao3 gong1" tt time ? or did i hear wrongly ? hahhha...

" 藉 口 "

翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现

去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜

看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见

来不及听见 你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我 也许已经很难回头

我知道自己错过 请再给我一个理由

说你不爱我 就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我

请不要把分手当作你的请求

我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口

请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后

就算没有结果 我也能够承受

我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺

你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容

如果要走 请你记得我 如果难过 请你忘了我

Quite a long long time didn't manage to blog...
cos i was tired and tired and tired.... quite a number of things happend during this period...
and i dunnoe how i manage to survive unitl now...

I am not a crying baby, but i broke down one of the night when i was talking to my mom...
dunnoe exactly wad happened le.. just so many thing tt i felt so messed up...
crying is not a solution, but after crying, it makes me feel stronger.....

As for basketball, i do think tt i am recovering from "down-slope" period... but i still think our training is not "intensive" enough... quite slack... but ya.... it is still as tired as usual lah...
i need time, i need time to be calm down and study.. i want stduy cos i need to pass promote..
then after the promote exam then i can focus on training and finding part time jobs to do to earn $.. but.. ya.. got to concentrate on the promote exam first lah...

Quite a BAD period for me lah... maybe i was too ****** ** by something ya.... some ppl felt tt i have changed my character in some way... and ya i am also being condemned by someone as the following:

Thursday, August 19, 2004
Sick and Tired

I hav nv seen such PETTY and IRRITATING GUY!!!!!!!!!! Hell…he has been getting onto my nerves…. I m so irked by his reaction and actions……EXTREMELY IRKED!!! His behaviour has destroyed my first impression of him…he everything disgusts me…yesh…I am totally GROOSED out…

………………..

im so sick and tired of U!

getting irked by some pple...just some immature, fussy and sensitive asshole... i duno how am i going to survive with these idiots ard... pls.. get a life pple..

i just realised how good is my temper... cos she is still alive....

Where have i gone wrong? ha... maybe in the first place when i just enterd the class few months ago... i should not be too nice to them....cos when after tt when u are unhappy and show them the "bo chap" and "yea..." tt kind of faces... u will be condemned like hell...

i am wrong....
really... i am too nice to ppl le....
one day...
i should have...
really throw my anger
and give them some piece of minds....
but... but... will i do tt ?
or... should i do tt?
after all they are just girls...
and i am on the weeker side...
i should not have step in this calssroom...
somehow.. i miss the old friends of mine... old classmates... and lots more....

Give me some of ur ideas if u r willing to share with me..

i miss you
. . . . .
really
. . . . .
really
. . . . .
Dun go
. . . . .
Come
. . . . .
Come to my arms
. . . . .
My dear
















MY dear is ............................................................................$ MONEY $ lah....

it has been a while since that day..
but i will always remember..
remember your face, your smile and of course..YOU

i miss you, is because i like you so i miss you
i like you, is because you are special so i like you
i hope for nothing but yet thinking of miracle
it has been a while since that day..

it was under the lights that shone upon us
it was the kindness of the surrounding
it was them who brought us temporary together
it was the moment i have been waiting for
it was a dream i could never dream of

i never felt this way before
but I can't break through
if the sun should refuse to rise,
the moon doesn't hang in the night
and when the world is through
i will still dream of you


extracted from rui teck's blog.... very de nice...

dear all... my phone number has been terminated...
so going to change my phone no with a new subscribtion of new line..
sorrie if i missed out any of ur calls and msgs..
will tell u all my new number again when i get it...
hopefully by tmr lah.... HOPEFULLY

bad day... without hp... sigh

EVERTYTIME

notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers
when our love is strong
Why carry on without me

everytime i try to fly,
i fall Without my wings,
i feel so small i guess i need you, baby

and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, it's haunting me i guess
i need you, baby

i make believe that you are here
it's the only way i see clear
What have i done you
seem to move on easy

and everytime i try to fly,
i fall Without my wings,
i feel so small i guess i need you, baby

and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting me
i guess i need you, baby

i may have made it rain please forgive me
my weakness caused you pain
and this song's my sorry at night
i pray that soon your face will fade away

and everytime i try to fly,
i fall Without my wings,
i feel so smalli guess i need you, baby
and everytime i see you in my dreams
i see your face, you're haunting
me i guess i need you, baby



Finally i borke down last night... feel much more easier and "lighter" now... mugging for econ test tmr... jia you =)

+++A PaSSAGEwAy+++

As I walk down that saddened road
Tears beat in my eyes
Was it the sand gust
Or was it my shattered heart

The wind rustles the tree leaves
The rustles fiddled with my mind
I saw you smiling
I saw you coming

Your sleazy look
The citrus fragrance you wear
That tire smile
So ever warm my heart

That familar warmth from ya hand
The never ending complain of ya bad day
The constant cute little gerly act
The comforting and soothing feeling of you in my arms

You are here...
You are not...

For now that you are gone
Your smile and laughters still in my mind
I miss you
I want you back

For now that you are gone
I save my love for you
My tears I swallow back into my heart
Stored in a vial locked deepest down in my heart

Went to orchard and play arcade, the memory flows back... i cant beat u... i miss the time when we play arcade together... the time crisis, the spot the diffence and so on.... i can't even dare to hold the gun, cos it remind me of u..... =(

yesterday, a great great friend of mine, brough me up to SUNTECT SUMMIT, which is 46 level high? or even higher? Very nice view there, very cooling cos the wind keep blowing at u, u feel like u r the king of the world when u standing up there... really... i felt much enlighten and much relaxed when i was there... wish to stay there longer... but i scare i will broke down and cried out there... =X

This world is full or reality.. my mother keep complaing mei2 you3 qian2... but what can i do ? stop it ok... i know we got to be jie2 shen3... but aiya... u ah... ARGHHHH... sometime really get on my nerves.... dunno wad to say lah.... i really hope tt i can strike a lottery or wad and stuff my house with full of money... oh... just realised i can't draw any money out from ATM, cos i am broke... great right...

BAD WEEKS BAD DAYS BAD TIMING......... i starts to doubt my values to others... i dunnoe...
where is my proud, where is my self instinct, where is the usual cofident CHUN HSIEN....
i can't find it now... merely survice thru the hardships... sighhh... guess i wun be toking much in sch for these days bah....

TO yq,
i am not getting impulsive lah... just tt i am too tired, and u know wad had happend to me recently... so ya... sorrie sorrie... i will be more patient now ok....

人生

在人生的过程当中会有无数的车站,
从起点说那是永恒,
从终点说那是短暂.
人生纵然多变化,
多巧妙,
有时聚,
有时离,
何必去寻烦恼添忧虑.



把握

一个人如果对你很好并不是理所当然的,
要懂得好好去把握.
如果您朋友或情人真的对你很好很好,
要记得好好的去把握,真的要好好的去把握.
别把这种好...看待成是理所当然
或本来就是应该的,
不懂得把握,
总有一天您将会失去他,
后悔寞及已太迟.



Grey color -----------> MY mood! =(

minimum pt dy/dx = 0........ LEAVE ME ALONE (sad....)

LOVE PHRASES

1.
THE YEAR HAS GONE
MY HEART STILL TRUE
I LOVE YOU ONLY
AND WILL ALWAYS DO

2.
SOMEONE LOVES 1
SOMEONE LOVES 2
BUT I LOVE YOU
LOVE YOU ONLY 1

3.
TODAY I DON'T WAN TO CALL
U BUT MY HEART IS CALLING..

4.
MY LEG IS HURTING I'M FALLING...
FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU
BUT I AM STILL WALKING
WALKING IN YOUR DEEPEST HEART

5.
ONE THING I DON'T KNOW WHY
HOW CAN I LIVE WITHOUT A HEART
AND HOW CAN U LIVE WITH TWO HEARTS

6.
 YOU MUST BE SO TIRED..
BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN RUNNING
THRU MY MIND THE WHOLE NIGHT

YOU MUST BE A THEFT
BECAUSE YOU HAVE STOLEN MY HEART

I MUST BE A BAD SHOOTER..
BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN MISSING YOU WHOLE NIGHT 

my fav phrases are in blue, whats urs ? =)

today pon two tutorials to go down TPY sports hall and watch south zone C boys final... ya.. GESS won... so proud of them... but ther was a peirod abt two quarters plus they were not palying well.. shouted like a mad on the grand stand but doubt they can hear lah.. hahha.. no voice now... shi sheng le... Ooopsss... was kinda agitated while they were losing, hahhaha, i felt like it is more nervous to watch them playing compare to when i myself go down to the court and play. (this sentence sounds weird lah, but ya nvm...)

they won 53-51.. heng yia, the last five minutes was the climax of the show man.. they were losing like 10+ pts at tt time, but they eventaully ya.. clinch the trophy! yeah... coach was as great as usual, hahhaha... damn steady and powerful, really admire him alot. If this year he was guiding my team for the A division, whahha.... SA champion? nah... impossible man....

not saying Shen3 shen and Lim Shen not good lah, but maybe i am more used to the Ah san's coaching style..hahhha.. I belive Shen3 Shen knwoledge and the ability of caoching is a level higher than ah san, but maybe this year he still coudn't find back his feeling, since TJC always kena looked down by other schs in the field of baskteabll. And him himself also not as HOT  as ah san, as he got A boys champions for countelss times already. (FYI : TJC was a basketabll powerhouse in the 1980-1990s) I am looking forward for next year competition, but first of all we must bring ourselves up to a another level and make the team bond well first. Defence is always a headache for us, but well i hope tt i can help out in this area somewhere and somehow.

I am tired, i just woke up, i slept when i reached home after eating with my friends (ex-teammates)... should i go back and sleep? or should i do some works... tmr i have PE before training... how great... gonna die.....

Should i say i hate u? nah... i dun wann put anymore energy on u le.. tired le... really tired...
let it be bah... i dun wanna pursue anymore hope from u le... u want ur freddom right... here it is... disappointted not equal tp anger... cos i am tired.... i wun msg u anymore until u msg me... i wun ask u out until u initiate it.... i dun hate u, cos i hate myself... getting moody.. shuld go and take another shower then... tatta....

I am borke... not only my pocket... but so does my heart....

I am very stressed up and tired today... very... everyone can tell that... even xin yan said i am clumsy today... i am half dead... i have only slept for  less than 3 hours last night... was doing PW sruveys... luckily got someone to accompnay throu out the whole night...

I am sad ? or I am to sad to tell wad is sadness? I dunnoe.. the whole morinng i was like a zoombie... Dennnis saw me during the break and he bought me a packet of sweet to cheer me up...hahha... feel so touched man... but ya... i am still very very tired...

Econ teacher needs ten ppl from each CG to attend the dunnoe wad Econ Quiz on wednesday at three, she wanted studnets especially from DHS, TKGS, TKSS and one dunnoe wad sch lah.. AHS? And ya, it is so great tt it clashes with History semenial, wahahha... nearly half of the class can't or dun want to go and the rest of the calss just simply dun bother abt it also! Wad a great class i have ah...=)  (i have to admit tt, this announcement is v unreasonsable, should fight for the class tmr during econ lesson)

AND NO MATTER WAD, NO ONE IS ALLOWED AND BE ABLE TO STOP ME OR HELD ME BACK FROM COMING DOWN TO TOA PA YOH SPORTS HALLT TO WATCH GESS "C" BOYS SOUTH ZONE FINAL! 

Whoever dare to do tt, i will hate u for life, and curse u until i die. (i will take cab rush down to there on wednesday after my econ tutorial which ends at 3pm)

I hate liar... cos i am the one myself... whenever ppl ask me whether i am fine or not.. i always gave them a smile and said i am fine!

I have enough problems from academic, friends, class, family and so on. I have enough, i need a break.... just give me a break ok... i am not a superman nor a perfect person!
Sometimes i jsut wanna faced off and shouted out "DUN PISSED ME OFF, U F****** A******"
I am tryting hard to satisfy everyone and trying to be nice to everone as far as i can, i am tired, really, both mentally and physically, i am just camoufalge it by using my dull and fake smile that i wear to sch everyday.

I am not unreasonable, i am not emotional, i am not moody, i am FINE, extremely fine, cos i am a liar... whahha... how great!

Those who know me well... just leave me alone.... Knows who dun knoe me at all.... just dun bother abt it bah...

My mother is so unsenstive enough tt she made me angry for three times today!
Three times! How great mom......

Kk.. i should stop crapping rubbish here... if not... i dunnnoe what other shit will come out from my mouth later if i type more... yes, i  am FINE, dun worry.....

++++my life is never complete cos i have been sad.....i am a fallen leave.....a fallen raindrop....a fallen tears.....++++

++++is the leaving of the leave the PURsuit of wind or the unwillingness of the tree to keep it++++

++++is the FALL of raindrops the LEAVING of the cloud...or the CRAVE to join the EARTH?++++

++++is the FALLING Of tearDROP the start of sadness or...the end of HAPPINESS?+++++

Should i let go... or keep persist on it...... confused ?

" I held on tight to your BODY as the dark arrive, the clouds gather and kidnap the sun......

........di....da....di...da...............

as the rain drops my tears fell...right there on that spot ...taht spot where we were....."

 
"You are gone and the place is empty...the WORLD greys ..as my heart dies....."

 
"I am the inner fire.....this is love.....this is love.....the force behind this World.......the force in all hearts...."


Relight mi pls.....

To wonder is the life of a sherperd
in a unknown direction
Todae
Tomorrow
Or is it an dark day
 
Since from which day
i have forgot to breath in
i have forgot to see with my heart
i have forgot my identity
 
I step on the icy cold path
Towards nowhere
Towards darkness
Where am i
 
Changed
Changed
Changed
Changed
 
i am not i am
i am not in existence
who am i
wat am i
 
As i cry
My tears fell into the sea
The sea evaporates
My sadness scattered over this world
 
Our love i dun understand
Why must it start again
When you have once hurt mi
Who is the taker
Who is the giver

Don't be put off by me, I am just a child in this world.
Don't lie to me, I sitll want my innoncence.
Don't bring me to the sky, I rather be on Earth watching the stars with you.
Don't promise me anything, I only need you besides me.
Don't tempt my, I will only stay broken.
Don't say you love me, I am too deceived.
 
 
 
Introduction:
I am tired.
 
Body paragraph:
I am easily discouraged and over-sensitive.
 
Conclusion:
Don't try to piss me off!

1.No one is worth your tears, and the one who is, wont make you cry
 
2.Just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them do, doesnt mean they dont love you with all they have
 
3.Never frown, even when you are sad because you never know who is falling in love with your smile
 
4.To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world
 
5.Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful
 
6. Dont cry because it is over, smile because it happened
 
7.There will always be people who hurt you. What you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time
 
8.Make yourself a better person. Know who you are before you expect someone else to know you
 
9.Dont try so hard. The best things come when you least expect them to
 
10.Whatever happens, happens for a reason

L-O-V-E
 
L is for the way you look at me
 
O is for the only one I see
 
V is very, very extraordinary
 
E is even more than anyone that you adore and
 
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
 
L is for the way you look at me
 
O is for the only one I see
 
V is very, very extraordinary
 
E is even more than anyone that you adore and
 
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
 

Something more more about me
 
01.Sleep with or without clothes on? always on..ah bo..
 
02.Prefer black or blue pens? dark blue
 
03.Dress up on Halloween? no...
 
04.Like to travel? depends on with whom
 
05.Like someone platonic or erotic? eh... platonic 
 
06.Sleep on your side? dun understand... what do u mean by on my side? but i sleep on my bed
 
07.Think you're attractive? depends on in whose eyes
 
08.Want to marry? yes, but not yet now
 
09.Who? how i know... 
 
10.Are you a good student? yes only at the moment I do my hw and pass my exams
 
11.Are you involved in sports? yes, u think sportstudent of the year is jia3 de1 ah
 
12.Birthplace? TAIWAN (a lovely country)
 
13.Christmas or Halloween? my birhtday =X
 
14.Colored or black-and-white photo? colored
 
15.Do long distance relationships work? not sure... never try b4 
 
16.Do you believe in astrology? a little bit
 
17.Do you believe in God? ya... why not ?
 
18.Do you believe in love at first sight? YES, for sure
 
19.Do you consider yourself the life of the party? it means wad?
 
 20.Do you drink? of cos i drink water lah... who don't
 
21.Do you have a car? no....
 
22.Do you have a job?  student lohz...
 
23.Do you make fun of people? Would u believe if i said no?
 
 24.Do you think dreams eventually come true? Yes, once I have dream, I believe it will come true if I strive for it.
 
25.Fave thing to do? too much to mention
 
26.Fave breakfast food? everything that taste nice
 
27.Fave Candy? i dun really eat candy
 
28.Fave Vacation spot? dunnoe lei.. any suggestion?
 
29.Favorite body part of the opposite/same sex: (-_-")
 
30.Favorite cartoon? dunnoe... i dun really watch cartoon like yong meng.. ooops
 
31.Go for the movies or rent? movie
 
32.Have you ever moved? yup...
 
33.Have you ever stolen anything (from store)? no lei... stole for wad.. hahha
 
34.How's the weather right now? no rain, no sun, that's all I could observe.
 
 35.Hug or kiss? Both  = )
 
36.Last person you talked to on the phone? my math tuition teacher
 
37.How many pairs of shoes? about 3 pairs...
 
38.Loud or soft music? soft... but wun be dozed off tt kind
 
39.McDonalds or Burger King? McDonalds
 
40.More romantic; baths or showers? bath bah... i think
 
41.Night or day? night
 
42.Number of Pillows? 1
 
43.Piano or guitar? Piano, cos i dunnoe guitar
 
 44.Fave snacks? chocolates = )  obviously....

Walking down life trying to find meaning in it. Finding pleasure from the simplest things. =D


Had a long long talk with Ms Sherren Ng today (my civis tutor), felt much more relax and motivated now... hey.. she is much better then i tot lohz...hahha..we didn't chat abt the academic stuff... instead we tok alot of craps here and there... but ya... really thankz for her listening ear... really feel much more better now =)

Went parkway there cut hair... hahha... ya, i always cut hair when my mood is down.. so ya... hahha... i liky my hair style now lei... wad do u all think lei? hahha... but my mom said it is not nice lohz...hahha... who cares... i like can already le mah.... =X

Quite moody for the past few weeks, can't tell from my face? hopfeully... if u really can't then better be more sensitive...hahhha... lohz.. ya.. now really feel motivated to do well in study and everything...hahha.. got to set my target and plan my time table le... must be a good student now :)

Going back to sch for PE and training now...nowadays training still very tiring..hahha.. our training is not like a training loz.. but is much more tiring than a normal training ok ! (for those who didn't get it nvm) hahha... see ya all... tata...mother nagging again le lohz...hahaha

SUCCESS

If you think you are beaten, you are.
If you think you dare not, you don't.
If you like to win, but you think you can't
It is almost certain you won't.

If you think you'll lose, you're lost.
For out of this world, we find SUCCESS
begins with a fellow's will It's all in the state of mind.

If you think you are outclassed, you are
You've got to think high to rise.
You've got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.

Life's battles don't always go
to the Stronger or Faster man.
But sooner or later, the man who wins
Is the man who thinks he can

if only you could rain again today,
the way u rained yesterday,
and leave a rainbow tomorrow,
like you left before.
even though the years go by,
seasons come and go,
still, your rainbow nourish me,
with colourful joy at midday.
it zips across the cloudy sky,
invisible aurora at dusk,
and at dawn.
it binds my heart with strength,
at the sight of your epitaph,
knowing you live forever,
and ever and even more...


I LOVE YOU... i am not joking.. really...
just bcos of some of ur smss... i couldn't sleep for the whole night..
i dun dare to ask more from u.. but i just hope tt my effort is worth it

I LOVE YOU IN 100 LANGUAGES!

English - I love you

Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief

Albanian - Te dua

Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)

Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)

Armenian - Yes kez sirumen

Bambara - M'bi fe

Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi

Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu

Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo

Bulgarian - Obicham te

Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah

Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a

Catalan - T'estimo

Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse

Chichewa - Ndimakukonda

Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)

Creol - Mi aime jou

Croatian - Volim te

Czech - Miluji te

Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig

Dutch - Ik hou van jou

Esperanto - Mi amas vin

Estonian - Ma armastan sind

Ethiopian - Afgreki'

Faroese - Eg elski teg

Farsi - Doset daram

Filipino - Mahal kita

Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua

French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore

Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort

Georgian - Mikvarhar

German - Ich liebe dich

Greek - S'agapo

Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo

Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw

Hawaiian - Aloha wau ia oi

Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)

Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)

Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw

Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae

Hmong - Kuv hlub koj

Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta

Hungarian - Szeretlek

Icelandic - Eg elska tig

Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw

Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu

Inuit - Negligevapse

Irish - Taim i' ngra leat

Italian - Ti amo

Japanese - Aishiteru

Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene

Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka

Kiswahili - Nakupenda

Konkani - Tu magel moga cho

Korean - Sarang Heyo

Latin - Te amo

Latvian - Es tevi miilu

Lebanese - Bahibak

Lithuanian - Tave myliu

Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu

Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu

Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni

Marathi - Me tula prem karto

Mohawk - Kanbhik

Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik

Nahuatl - Ni mits neki

Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni

Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg

Pandacan - Syota na kita!!

Pangasinan - Inaru Taka

Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo

Persian - Doo-set daaram

Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay

Polish - Kocham Ciebie

Portuguese - Eu te amo

Romanian - Te ubesk

Russian - Ya tebya liubliu

Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort

Serbian - Volim te

Setswana - Ke a go rata

Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of
fingers when signing'I Love You')

Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan

Sioux - Techihhila

Slovak - Lu`bim ta

Slovenian - Ljubim te

Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo

Swahili - Ninapenda wewe

Swedish - Jag alskar dig

Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di

Tagalog - Mahal kita

Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li

Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe

Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen

Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu

Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)

Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)

Turkish - Seni Seviyorum

Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu

Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo

Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)

Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)

Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu

Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh

Yoruba - Mo ni fe

WOULD YOU RATHER:

1) pierce your nose or tongue? NEVER

2) be serious or be funny? Depends on the situation bah

3) drink whole or skim milk? skim milk bah

ARE YOU:

4) simple or complicated? Very simple to those with simple mind, very complicated to those with complicated mind.

DO YOU PREFER

5) flowers or angels? I prefer angels who give me flowers

6) grey or gray? ehhh... it means the same things right?

7) colored or black-and-white photos? colored of cos

8) lust or love? well... love

9) sunrise or sunset? Sunset, cos i can't wake up so early to catch sunrise

10) M&Ms or Skittles? Kitkat not bad right..

11) rap or rock? Pop songs better

12) staying up late or waking up early? Neither..hahha... i need to SLEEP

13) TV or radio? TV when watching... Radio when listening

14) eating apples or oranges? watermelon and bananas =P

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

16) Do you have a crush? Ahbo~~~

17) Who is it? Whoever it is, you don't know it anyway. =P

DO YOU PREFER:

18) being hot or cold? hot bah..

19) tall members of the opposite sex? Yes. But not taller than me

20) sun or moon? eh.. no idea

21) emeralds or rubies? Diamonds only =) cash also can

22) left or right? i am a right handed

23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 best friend

24) sun or rain? who likes rain?

25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? vanilla ice cream is good, but chocolate ice cream is better !

27) green beans or carrots? chicekn chop...hahha

26) boys or girls? huh? i am not gay.... but i like cute little baby boys.. always like to pinch their faces...hahha

28) low fat or fat free? fat free bah..

MISCELLANEOUS:

29) What is your biggest fear in the world? failing exams..

30) Kids or no kids? Kids (cute baby boys..whahha)

31) Cat or dog? puppy.. so adorable..hahha

32) Half empty or half full? wad does it mean ?

33) Mustard or ketchup? i will never like mustard and chilli in my life

34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? soft one.. cos lighter to carry

35) Newspaper or magazine? Newspaper

36) Sandals or sneakers? depends on what situation

37) Wonder or amazement? whatever

38) Red car or white car? white one

39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? Ms sherine ng said this before.. hahha... of cos i want to be HAPPY n RICH.. duhz...

40) Singing or dancing? no dancing thankz

41) Hugging or kissing? lolz... BOTH

42) Corduroy or plain? plain.. i like simple stuff

43) Happy or sad? happy, u must be mad if u choose sad

45) Blondes or brunettes? as long as she is a woman

ABOUT YOU:

What time is it? forget le

Full name? Lee Chun Hsien

Nicknames: Find our urself

Names and ages of siblings? Only Child

Number of candles that appeared on your last
birthday cake? 3 only... save candles

Date that you regularly blow them out? holiday

Pets? none

Eye color? Brown ?

Hair color? black

Piercings? none... not going to pierce it in my life.. scare pain..haha

Phua Chu Kang was asked to make a sentence using 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 and 10. Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again from 10 back to 1. This is what he came up with......

"1 day I go 2 climb up a 3 outside a house to peep. But couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rush out and wanted to 5 with me. I run until I fall 6 and throw out. So I go into 7 eleven and grab some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab him. 10 God he run away.

So, I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7 eleven. Next day, I call my boss and say I am 6. He said 5, tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also ask me to climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand, I so nice 2 him but I dont know what he 1."

THE END....

I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see.
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free

"I'm trying to free your mind, But I can only show you the door. You're the one who has to walk through it. You have to let it all go. Fear, doubt and disbelief. Free your mind."

Fear, doubt and disbelief are the ones locking our minds up which caused panic, unnecessary worries and unpredictable consequences. We never tried releasing them because it may result to a unwanted bad situation.

very very very very very SHUAYthis week...

1. Wednesday got Math C paper, tuesday night black out

2. Thusday got Econ and LEP papers, wednesday night fever

3. LEP teachers lost the essays which were selected to send to MOE, then i need to rewrite(reproduce) one now

4. Key broke into half, stucked inside the key hole, and my room is locked

5. Bite my own lips while eating dinner at suntec

6. Speakers spoilt

7. Injured my left hand when i was playing tennis, the racket i hold in my right hand swing to hit my left hand when i smashed the ball

8. Felt sick again now

9. Saw sherman today and he made some not-so-nice commetns abt someone who i cared

what more unlucky can i be ?

NO ENTRY FOR UNDER-18 HERE



haha okok here's a joke...
In a classroom.. t
he Miss tan, the teacher was asking her students
" why will the cow be angry if u milk her?"
Jimmy stood up and explained..
"if someone keep rubbing ur breast for half an hr and din't f*** you.. ofcos angry la!"
hahhaha ops..


Dun take any offence ah... just a joke here... =0

The Reason by Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

English Girl

A woman goes to England to attend a 2-week, company training session. Her
husband drives her to the airport and wishes her to have a good trip.
The wife answers : "Thank you honey, what would you like me to bring for you?"
The husband laughs and says: "An English girl !!!"
The woman kept quiet and left.
Two weeks later he picks her up in the airport and asks: "So, honey,how was
the trip?"
"Very good, thank you."
"And, what happened to my present?"
"Which present?" She asked?
"The one I asked for- the English girl!!"
"Oh, that" she said
"Well, I did what I could, now we have to wait a few months to see if it is a
girl !!!"
Moral of the story: "Don't tempt a woman, they are too intelligent"

《有你就夠了》
給我笑臉當你不在可以思念
終於感覺甚麼是永遠
我不怕世界善變
也從不怕路還遙遠
牽掛最後都會變喜悅
兩個人的歲月
有你這一生就夠了
所有的尋覓都值得
我們的擁抱就像是呼吸
是那麼的自然又那麼必需
有你甚麼事都對了
不管是否還有挫折
能彼此珍惜是多麼必需
這一生有你陪我就夠了

Choices are things we often make, some are bad, and some are good, some are reasonable, some are not. We often sort the most wanted and desirable choice among all choices but it may not achieve the results we wanted. Nevertheless, choices are always to be made to decide the path of life.

You are my RIGHT CHOICE =)

dunnnoe why nowadys, like got so many idiotic and boring ppl wanna anyhow play with ppl tag board... last time eilleen fu kena and now is John's one...haiz

Didn't blog much nowadays, cos really dun have much time! Was having tuitions and doing revision which i will never going to complete it! Arghhhh.... i was so tired tt i fall i sleep while in my study room with radio, aircon and light on! hahha... kinda of wastful!

Didn't get the chance to paly bball for a long time also, think my stamina will be suck to the core now... dunnnoe i still remmebr what is left hand lay-up or not! hahhha.... (>_<")

Mugging econ now, but haiz... read liao like never read before like tt...hahha... what demand what supply what market structures... feel like buring the econ study notes whenever i saw it... then the LEP hor, i didn't know got so much things to memorize it man... shit...haiiz...
anyway can give up GP lah, confirm fail one... can't even finish half of it during sch practice, how to pass in exam?

My neck is breaking, and it is killing me... feel like having a massage lolz.... hahhha.... any free service? bleah...

eh, hope everyone is doing fine lah...i hate exma lah...haiz

OH YA, to anyone who come across my blog,
i need a samsung plastic rubber cap, which is meant for tt charger hole tt one... any kind hearted can find of give me tt? I need it urgently and desperately... i know is very unimportant stuff, but anyone who has it can give me? PLEASE~~~~~~~~
pls contact me at 97592689.... thankz... i really need it lolz

Going backt to study econ now... haiz....

For a shied from a storm, for a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm, I turn to you. For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on, for everything into, for everything its true, I turn to you. When I lose the will to win, I just reach for you for I can reach.

What were you doing when you are 17 that time?
Rushing for classes? Mugging for examinations? Talking non-stop with your best buddies? Or going crazy for idols?
All I wish for my 17 year old life is to get a normal life.
Who would understand a 17 year old boy's life?
Not even an Alien or psychiatrist.
I don't understand myself either.
Only desperately hoping for someone to rely on.. to share my woes with..
Despair and Hopeless are greatest enemy.
STRESS yia...

What Is Love ?


Love is something that is not easily explained. No one word can express it. No one person feels the same about it. IT's waking up in the morning wanting to be with that one person adn going to be feeling the same way. It's knowing that you want to spend the rest of your life with her and it's a feeling so great that no matter what anyone says will enver be taken away. It's cring every night wehn the one you love doesn't love you back. It's feeling that pain in your heart when you lose that one person. But to just hear those three little words come from her mouth and actually know she means it. That's the best feeling in the world. To know ath someone loves you for you and want to be with you forever. Love is hard to find and even harder to keep. It takes time and effort to keep it going on the track. But you don't mind because you wold do anyhing in the wrold to keep it. It's knwoing that when you come home you will ahve someone to share your day iwth. She will be the first one you want to see when you wake up. THe only thing that is onyour mind all day, all round. It's knowoing that someone's always there for you to rely on. Someone is always there for you to talk your heart out and wun judge you for that. It is the person you fell the most comfortbale within the bond with one other peson. That is the best feeling in the world. But when you lose that feeling, when you lose the only hting that ever mattered to you, it sees like life has no purpose, no point at all. You feel like you could just curl up and ide. Ths you nothign or no one else matters to you adn the only things that you eahve ever wanted is now gone. You will do anyhign to get her back, becuse she is worth it. You will try and try until one day you realize that things will never be the same again. Your love is still there, deep insdie of you. So you try your best to just be friend and it works for a while, only for a little while. The feelings are still there adn no matter how hard you try, friedn will enver be good enough. So you want to forget abt her, but that's even harder. THers too many memoreies, to mayn good times to jsut forget and no matter what you do, she is always in your mind. Everwhere you go and everything u do. That pain will never elaves you and the lonely feeling will stays with you forver.

A Poem That Touched me...

"Both are convinced that a sudden surge of emotion bound them together. Beautiful is such a certainty but uncertainty is more beautiful. Because they didn't know each other earlier, they suppose that nothing was happening between them. What of the streets, stairways and corridors where they could have passed each other long ago? I'd like to ask them whether they remember - perhaps in a revolving door ever being face to face? an "excuse me" in a crowd or a voice "wrong number" in the receiver But I know their answer : no, they don't remember. They'd be greatly astonished to learn that for a long time Chance had been playing with them. Not yet wholly ready to transform into fate for them, it approached them, then backed off. Stood in their way and, suppressing a giggle, jumped to the side."

Do u all have the same experience before? share with us bah... =D

didn't blog for a long long time.. can't rememebr when did i blog for the last time.. my computer was down for nearly a week..sianz! just got it repaired last night..think i got to go and download some latest aniivirus programmmes.. must be free one heee....

haiz.. didn't really in a good mood for the past few days... cos i couldn't use my com.. and i didn't have any mood to study...haiz

Who am i.. What am i.. Where am i.. I DUNNOE

Sorry for truning down ur.......eh.....hao3 yi4?
but i dun think anything will happen between us.. no sparks bah...
wo lei le... nightz

EXPLANATION
IF YOU CHOOSE TO EXPLAIN YOURSELF, DO IT BECAUSE YOU WANT TO SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS WITH ANOTHER PERSON AND NOT BECAUSE YOU NEED THEIR APPROVAL

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?


What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow a nd you never got to tell them how you felt?


So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.



I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember that somebody out there in the world cares about you and always will.


I'll Always Be There

In times of trouble,

In times of need,

If you are feeling SAD,

You can count on me.

I will give you a wink,



Until you smile,

give you a hug,

And stand by your side.

I'll be there for you till the end,

I'll always and forever, be your friend!

~ Watching NBA now (repeat) ~
~ Didn't study for the whole day ~
~ Didn't do any exercise ~
~ Didn't eat dinner ~
~ Sianz ~
~ Restless ~
~ Don't know what i want to do now ~
~ Need to clean up my room ~
~ Feel like going out ~
~ Want to watch movie and play arcade ~
~ Want to play ~
~ Kobe & Shaq are steady ~
~ Lakers lost at their homeground ~
~ I am lacking behind for my studies ~
~ I didn't complete my homework ~
~ I sleep too much ~
~ I want to sleep again ~

GO TO HELL...

You Raise Me Up - Josh Groban

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life – no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be

just went back from LEP camp in NTU, four days three nights learnt alot of things and make more friends! First night was the most boring and dead day, had many very sianz talks and did nothing meaningful at all.
the meals here are terribly sucks to the core, didn't eat more not bcos i am on diet but the food is really cannot make it man!

Second day was better, eventot we had a stupid trip to visit the graves and tombs, but actually we were like traveling in the bus and chatting. Know this guy from HCJC called Hoi Fai, hahha, chatted with him for the whole camp, especially in the bus, tok so much craps with him and some stupid jokes! Glad to know him, and dunnnoe why we tok abt lots of personnal things like his past, his family and etc, of course i told him mine too! currently the girl he likes also in the LEP camp, so i was like keep teasing and fooling around with him, ha! This guy is damn slow, always man ban pai, ha, always give u tt blur blur face, and he walks slow, tok slow and eat slow.. sometime abit buay ta han him! but his is kind hearted also not bad lah... got to keep a good realtionship with him, since HCJC got so many CHIO BU...whahhahha =D (joking)

During one of the night, chatted with GH until 04:00am in the room, cos we both couldn't get to sleep, ha! We chatted alot of stuffs like ghost stories in TJC and RI! and lots more... he chatted abt his problems with his family and his gf's family and many more his problems and his future! Then i was like in one short i know him better like tt, and some how this kind of feeling is like we two getting closer? since we are the only two pathetic guys in our class, which dominated by an outstanding number of girls! He said he felt lonely in TJC, and sometime i do feel the same thing as him... he said sometime when he walked down to the canteen, he felt so pathetic tt, he dunnoe who to eat with! sigh....

~to be continued~

难过 是因为闷了很久 是因为想了太多 是心理起了作用
你说 苦笑常常陪著你 在一起有点勉强 该不该现在休了我
不想太多 我想一定是我 听错弄错搞错 拜托 我想是你的脑袋有问题
随便说说 其实我早已经猜透看透 不想多说 只是我怕眼泪撑不住
不懂 你的黑色幽默 想通 却又再考倒我
说散 你想很久了吧 我不想拆穿你
当作 是你开的玩笑 想通 却又再考倒我
说散 你想很久了吧 败给你的黑色幽默
我的认真 败给黑色幽默

I am proud of you

I care about you

I miss you

I want to be with you

I hope you aren't in trouble

I am thankful for the support you have provided

I want to hold your hand

I want you to be happy

I hope you are not too cold, or too hot

I want to hug you

I love you

I am thinking of you and smiling

I want to be your shoulder to cry on

I think the world of you

I will protect you

I will do anything for you

I am praising God for you

I want to tell you how much you care to me

I want to share my dreams with you

I want you to hold me in your arms

I wish I could STOP time because of you

I love you for who you are

I love the way you make me feel

I need your support and encouragement

I want you to know I am here for you

I stayed up all night thinking about you

I am alive because of you

I want to be with you

I have faith in you



Its a sad thing that i will not be able to tell all these thing that i wanted to tell you =(

So why did I cry
When you waved good-bye?
They ask me why?
I just don't know.
It's Goodybe, adios, ciao, adieu.
I needed a love
It could have been from you

I feel like screaming out F words now...
F the whole things that ruined my day today...
F the econ lectures, tutorials and tmr test
F the PE teachers.. both of U
F the whole damn shit tt i am suffering now......
Arghhh......... FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

Woke up early in the moring.. did some work here and there..
but haven't study even a bit of Econ.. next week got test le...
die.. who can help me ? Arghhh...

I am chosen to take part in TJC SportsExcel Mentoring Programme..
or something like tt one...
eventot i didn't apply fot tt sports scholarship (scholars can get $600~$800 per year under this scholarships lei)...
but i am asked to take part in it... also dunnoe why...
hahhhah.... i am pair up with Ronnie, and our mentor is Marcus Ng..
the national player in Water Polo team... heard he is quite famous lah.. i dunnoe also... have u all heard about this guy before?
hahhha.... he is my mentor now, and we are going to meet him this wednesday afternoon... hahhha.... nervous!

Then we are asked by school teachers to prepare some background info abt him first, before we meet up with him...

so just now i went to google.com to seach for Marcus Ng
......
i typed Marcus Ng, and press the Enter
......
then the search results come out
......
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then i click on it.......DOTS (-_-")
......
advice ppl dun take a look at this website...
at least dun dry this at home...ha

wah... xin yan u bot so many things of course u r broke now...
but i abit envy u lohz... buy so much things... got so much $ to spend... hahha... i even need to consdier a while when i wanted to buy New paper...hahhha... joking lah....

To eileen ee.. erm.. i really know what happened to u these days lah..
cos we rarely tok to each other now and then... but can tell u were quite low adn down these few days... hope u can better next week..
a fresh week... hahhha.. Tomorrow will be better, tt's what i alwasys bluff myself =P
oh ya... and i am the only child too.. so some how can guess what u thinking or "suffering" now...

Went back to GESS to paly basketabll...
zhong wei, yong meng, matthew, ruiteck, wei lun, zhi min, yow lun all went back..hahhha... sort of didn't meet up for qutie a long time..
ha... nice to play bball with they all...hahhahha...
very nice really...... even i can't really run or jump with my injuried ankle... but well we still played unitl very happy...
hahhha... my three point really not bad lei... hahhha.. Ooopss
btw saw ah san now got white hairs already... tsk tsk tsk
time really flow fast....

Tonnes of hw waiting for me.. next week still got two or three tests?
can't really bother with it ...haiz... econ is really a headache for me...study study study! haiz... dots.... sianz... sigh...

Why make me fall for u when you can't be with me ?
Hmmmm.... quite touching...

Headache...busy...life sucks.....!
Only slept for three to four hours last nights...
sigh... miss basketabll again.. dunnoe why so fast!
Anyway i really should be resting well at home until my ankle is fully recover before i touch the basektabll again...
Think will go for a swim later...
hahha... btw i just went to play tennis at Dennis house...ha

Tmr is the A boy Basketball Chamipionship Final...
HCJC vs SAJC... Good luck to everyone who is playing tmr...
especially Gabriel, Hong Yi, Yong Meng, Hui Jie, Quan Ju, Eugiene..etc
hahhha...
I dun care who will win tmr (think HCJC will win, anyone wanna bet with me ?)... i just hope tt tmr i will catch a good show...hahhha...
Tmr can skip two tutorials again to go down toapayoh to receive the prize.. so happy....
All the best dudes......take care =)

In whatever we do in life we have many choices. It's juz that sometimes many people choose to believe the easiest or most popular choice is the best choice, however i am the odd one.

Many ppl keep asking me why i didn't want to go SAJC to play basketabll... or maybe HCJC or AJC and blah blah blah....
I just smiled and told them that oh.. cos SAJC is too far away from my house and so on...
But deep in my heart, i have my own reasons...
and my answer is just in tt phrase....

I have no regret coming to TJC... instead i felt so blessed here...
hahhha... ya... so what we lost to AJC by four pts yesterday?
so wad we get a fouth in National level...?
I have already gave my best.. especially the last two games (semi-final and thrid&fourth placing) I really have no regret at all...
For those who have seen me palying for that two games, really know waht i am talking about... For those who didn't see me palying for that two games, i really can proudly tell u that i really played well.. I have no regret at all... =)

This morning was in a state of rage?
ok.. not tt serious... but was really really pekcek abt my class....
No one wants to participate in the SC investiture...
Even those who are free also gave me those kind of stupid excuses..
what can i do? Keep begging ppl to go.. keep sms and ask who are free?
Who am i ? An Indonesian Maid of 34/04 ah...
Haiz...

Had a plate of chicken chop from the wetern food stall..
Quite nice and full...
But...went home.........lao sai :(

I dunnoe why someone doubt abt my injury...
do i look fake mei? U think i so rich spend twenty bucks happy happy go and see tie da for fun de ah...
I sprained my ankle during the third quarter on wednesdasy (VS SAJC)
I didn't tell anyone.. i just tighten my shoelaces and continued playing... I got to fight on... i dun want to sit on the bench and i dun want to give up.. and tt's why i didn't tell anyone at tt time yet!

Whatever lah... i really got no mood now... haiz...
TMR those who are goign to see the match... pls dun exepect me to play well... i will try my best... but i dun have motivation now..
i will go down to the basketball court near by my house now...
to find some inspiration i think....
haiz.... 34/04 pls be more cooperated... thankz....
I know i didnt do a good job as a CG rep for this term..
i am really stressed up and busy with Competition... sorrie..sigh

Now at home slacking...
watching NBA.... lakers won...=)
Whole body aching.... tired.... disappointed also...
can't walk properly... sigh....

Today went to sch only attend the cleaning and first lesson..
Skipped three lectures in a row to stay in HUB and canteen...
Done some bo liao things... like copy maths and did my Chinese correction... bo bian.. no mood to attend any lessons.. competition stress i guess ?
was frozed in the HUB..... it was DAMN cold.... buay ta han..really

Dennis only came to school at around eleven plus...
hey.. thankz for ur nail clippers.. ha =)
Accomany him to look for Lucozyte after the lunch..
we went to three 7-11 and countless of mamashop...
but still coudn't find it... we like walking from the sch all the way to Bedok MRT station there.... so paiseh.. shouldn't ask u to look for Lucozyte one.. sorry lah....:P

Nice game with SAJC...really nice.... eventot we lost by 6 pts...
i played well....at least quite well...really...hahhha...
not i said one hor... ppl said one =P
but still lose lah...... haiz......but wo you jin li qu da hor...
i spraiend my rihgt ankle at the beiging of the third quarter...
sigh..... TMD.. dun think tmr i can take PE and trianing...

Was really quite down after the match... ya.. is really like "so near yet so far"... very tired... but everyone has play their best le..
so there wun be any regret for us.... we had more mistakes than them and that's why we lost...we should learn our mistakes and correct it as soon as possible.. tt's is more impt!

Surprisingly my juniors was there.. Yow lun, Rui Teck and Chin yong...
hahhha.. they are having thier mid year exam right now.. and yet they came and support me today... so touched... hahhha...tanzk ya dudes

All the year two players were really sad in the bus when we reutrn to TJC.... i saw lots of them using the towels to cover up thier face....
haiz......Dennis was annoyed by the noise level created by the girls... he threw an empty water bottle to them....
but somehow the water bottle flew to me..... shuay (^_^")

Btw, surprisingly, when we reached the school... there is one girl wearing the TJC unifrom came forward and said "Jun xian, jin tian ni da de hen hao oh...hahha" then she quickly ran away with her friend...
hahhha...i dun even know who is she and how she knows my name...
dun even know she is year 1 or year 2....hahahhha...


After that we whole team went to Tampinese Mall to eat Mac and wathced the movie "Blood Brother".....
I saw Elieen Ee and June there also..
this two girls always shopping here and there one... tsk tsk
Anyway, the show was damn nice lohz.. marvellous
i strongly recommented everyone to watch the "Blood Brother"
I hope i can get tt kind of friendships too......ha

After the meals, arcades and movie... everyone's mood is getting better.. we even cheered inside the Cienam after the show ends...
hahhaha.... so paiseh.... We are fresh again..
and Saturday we are goign to play well and win the match no matter wad... Just like what allen always like to say "we are going to fuck them upside down, and inside out" hahhha.....sorrie.. abit rude the words here... but tt's his fav sentence lah......

Watiting for my mom to use the chiense medicine to rub my ankle....
I need to rest and calm down... if these days i behave strangely..
just dun mind me...hahhha..... competition STRESS mah...
saw eileen fu's blog just now...
hahhha...the words she used also qutie vulgar...
f*** here nad there.......... (^_^")

Some qutei headache problems happened in my class recently...
but i really got no time to settle lhoz......
haiz...... my works are slacking behind and i am still here bloggin...
haiz....

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海阔天空
曲：Hun Lim/Jun Young Choi | 词：姚若龙 |

我曾怀疑我 走在沙漠中 从不结果 无论种什么梦
才张开翅膀 风却便沉默 习惯伤痛能不能 算收获
庆幸的是我 一直没回头 终于发现 真的是有绿洲
每把汗流了 生命变的厚重 走出沮丧才看见 新宇宙
海阔天空 在勇敢以后 要拿执着 将命运的所打破
冷漠的人 谢谢你们曾经看轻我 让我不低头 更精采的活
凌晨的窗口 失眠整夜以后 看着黎明 从云里抬起了头
日落是沉潜 日出是成熟 只要是光一定会 灿烂的
海阔天空 在勇敢以后 要拿执着 将命运的所打破
海阔天空 狂风暴雨以后 转过头 对旧心酸一笑而过
最懂我的人 谢谢一路默默的陪着我
让我拥有好故事可以说 看未来 一步步来了

As a playmaker, your job is more than to score, to shoot the three points. Your responsibility is to control the whole situation on the ocurt and bring up the mood and create the atmosphere for your teammates. No doubt you are a very good player, you are skillful and talented, however you are lacking the leadership, teamwork and the baility to calm down when the team is playing badly. You got frustrated when you felt that the whole team is not playing well, you are not in the good shape. The sad thing is that, you choose to blame the fault to others instead of correcting it yourself first. Or maybe is it that becasue you can't even see your mistakes yourself? Now is the time for you to cool down and think what you should do and how could you change the present situation? TEAMWORK is the keyword to success, be confident in your teammates and encourage them when they are down. You can fault people that they are not playing well, but did u play well in the first place? Be smart, you got to bring yourself up to another level, you are capable of doing better and yet sadly you fail to do it. You may think that what i typed here is to criticize you or whatever it is, but just hope that you can be more mature in palying baksetball; this is a five-men game not a one-man show. You are equipped with an outstanding skills and an incredible jumping power, but you forget to be humble. If you want your opponents to respect you, then in the first place you have to respect them. If you want your teammates to listen to you, then in the first place you got to do is to lend your ears to them. This is the world of reality, we have the same dream and goal, and that is why wer are here, wearing the same jerseys. I do not want to voice out anthing because at this period of time we must bunch together like a rugby scrum and fight as a team, but it is also my duty as a teammate to mention all this here. You can do it, and if you can do it, there is nothing impossible to stop us from clinching the glory. Remember, only you can bring us up, and being in the top 4 now is not the ending, the game has just started. =)

~ Written by Chun Hsien 09.05.2004 01:37AM

Tired... guessed really got to go for runnning and swimming to build up the stamina already... today after the first two quarters realy no energy le...
lucky i got the whole third quarter to rest... =P

Stupid VJC... where got people full course press from the starting of the game to the end of the game... u not tired i see liao also tired... hahhhahha....
but well... lucky lin shen anticipated it long ago... heng...

Last quarter i drawed charge on one player... i fall on the ground... then i saw the referee behind me blewed the whistle n said charging... hahhha......
but the another referee which is somewhere else on the court blewed me blocking...
damn cockz man... in the end i blocking.... stupid!

Today my ball sense very good... dunnoe why...
very lucky.. whaever pattern wun miss one...
but i got one air ball...
when i tried to attempt one three points........... SOBZ

This is extracted from Da Zhang's blog:
Kinda understood what he's going through these few weeks. Just wanna tell you something bro, "Before that you could perhaps have done a 1000 things with her, but now you can still do 500 things together. Look on the bright side and don't stress yourself too much =]" (Pai seh, didn't read yr blog for some time)


Thankz for ur concern... hahhha..... but i can't understand wad u really mean?
wad still can do 500 things together? hahhha......

我已经放弃所有哭的理由

因为我早就习惯冷漠活在无情的现实里头

=) The Msgs u sent to me last night... make me realised i didn't love the wrong person for the past... Yes, u do hurt me, u hurt me badly and so bloody intensively that i wun be able to forget what u have done to me... but i am so coward that i dun have the courage to kick u out of my heart...

YOUR MSGS:
" I am sorry for the harm that i have done.. i am really sorry that you are hurt by me... sorry."

"Nothing.. just tell you that i am sorry... and hope you can move on with ur life with no hearbreaks."

"I hope to see ya happy in your life.. promise me that... dun worry nothing happen"

I felt so touched and satisfied after receving these three msgs from u... thanks..
I didn't cry this time... i am really happy that u have grown up...
I can't forgive you.. Bcos i have never hate u before...
My scar is still there.. but ur msgs sweaten my smile...
I kissed the hp screen... pretend that it was ur lips.... =)

TAKE CARE....... well........ my friend....!

Sunday School
Little Mary was not the best student in Sunday School. Usually she slept through the class. One day the teacher called on her while she was napping, ''Tell me, Mary, who created the universe?'' When Mary didn't stir, little Johnny, an altruistic boy seated in the chair behind her, took a pin and jabbed her in the rear. ''God Almighty !'' shouted Mary and the teacher said, ''Very good'' and Mary fell back to sleep.
A while later the teacher asked Mary, ''Who is our Lord and Savior?''
But Mary didn't even stir from her slumber. Once again, Johnny came to the rescue and stuck her again. ''Jesus Christ!'' shouted Mary and the teacher said, ''Very good,'' and Mary fell back to sleep. Then the teacher asked Mary a third question, ''What did Eve say to Adam after she had her twenty-third child?'' And again, Johnny jabbed her with the pin. This time Mary jumped up and shouted, ''If you stick that damn thing in me one more time, I'll break it in half!'' The Teacher fainted


Unrespectful
A Chinese man walks into a bar in America late one night and he sees Steven Spielberg.
As he was a great fan of his movies, he rushes over to him, and asks for his autograph.
Instead, Spielberg gives him a slap and says,
"You Chinese people bombed our Pearl Habour, get outta here." The astonished Chinese man replied,
"It was not the Chinese who bombed your Pearl Harbour, it was the Japanese".
"Chinese, Japanese, Taiwanese, you're all the same," replied Spielberg.
In return, the Chinese man gives Spielberg a slap, and says,
"You sank the Titanic, my forefathers were on that ship."
Shocked, Spielberg replies,
"It was the iceberg that sank the ship, not me."
The Chinese man, replies,
"Iceberg, Spielberg, Carlsberg, you're all the same."